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SecretDissociation

SecretDissociation

Suicide enthusiast
Sep 11, 2022
394
It's been four weeks since I self-harmed. Simply put, I don't have the enrgy to. I'm still grieving my friend that died Five Weeks and Three days ago (maybe I miscalculated by a couple of days - I am not good at maths!).

I figured, a win is a win. So I'm taking it.

But I feel more miserable than before. Does trying to hang myself count as self-harm? I'm not counting that... Does purging count? Not counting that either.

i'll just focus on this win. No cutting and no overdosing over the last four weeks. I might be still slowly mentally rotting, but hey, I'm doing something right.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
I have had desire for self harm but I have never actually done it and I cannot stand pain very well, so it is out of question. I also dont want people to look at me at the gym or swimming.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
588
Idk if this would help but im so proud of you dude!

If you feel bad at least you didn't hurt yourself

But your pain is still real and you have a right to be upset or sad

I hope this message makes you a bit happ and if not that's fine too
 
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