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SterileMoth

SterileMoth

Who knows man
Jul 9, 2020
74
So I've been working hard on living the past year, at least I think I have. I've been on meds, upped dosages, practiced positive self talk and tried to unlearn all the negative habits I've learned or taught myself. My partner's helped some with that, I'm learning to laugh at myself rather than beat myself up for simple mistakes again, something my ex made worse.

It's funny really, both my partner and I have wanted to ctb for years and part of me is like ... To think once I wanted to make a pact with someone, and this would be a great opportunity. But then our cats would probably starve, and they're important, and I honestly would much rather live with him than die with him. I think he feels the same even though he still has thoughts occasionally.
The one thing I don't know what to do is help him with SH ... He hits himself when he's upset at himself or overwhelmed, but I understand that. I just ... Have been getting better at doing other things lately. I don't know what would help him, or how to help him stop ... Idk if he knows either right now. I hope it'll be okay though ... Like he's really amazing and I don't want anything happening to him.
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
7,031
i do the same. do you think maybe a punching bag could help?
 
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timf

Enlightened
Mar 26, 2020
1,399
Life_and_death has a good suggestion. Using a substitute action can be a good way to experiment with gaining control.
 

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