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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

Arcanist
May 28, 2024
442
I'm in a self pitying mood tonight.

I'm coming to the realization that being a good person doesn't result in people caring about you, it results in people using you. Meanwhile absolute piece of garbage people are surrounded by loved ones. Make it make sense.

I'm physically and mentally disabled, I don't know how much longer I can pretend I'm okay. Then again, as long as I'm working and paying taxes, who cares?

I want to be safe. I want to be loved. I want someone to check on me once in awhile that's not being paid.

I've always known no one is coming to save me except me, but I'm scared the day is coming when I can't do it any longer.
 
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gottacheckout

gottacheckout

Specialist
May 20, 2025
343
I have days just like you described regarding good vs garbage people. I have also found that I'm inherently a good person and from your posts I suspect you are too. We have to be true to ourselves.

I really don't care if you are working and paying taxes. I do care that you are okay mentally and physically.

We all want to feel safe and loved but unfortunately that is not always the case, there is a lot of evil in the world. While ultimately we have to be able to save ourselves it is also important that we open up ourselves for others that really want to help.
 
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StupidCat

StupidCat

retard
Apr 24, 2025
243
I'm a garbage person and I don't have much people that love me.
It depends on how you portray yourself to the outside.
Garbage people tend to be sociopath so they know how to manipulate people and appear charismatic.
There's no iron rule and I don't know your exact circumstances but just surround yourself with people and some of them will eventually like you.
I know it's hard especially for autists like me but you gotta try if that's what you want to have.
I personally don't mind being alone and unlovable as long as I can be at peace.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Warlock
May 10, 2025
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I'm in a self pitying mood tonight.

I'm coming to the realization that being a good person doesn't result in people caring about you, it results in people using you. Meanwhile absolute piece of garbage people are surrounded by loved ones. Make it make sense.

I'm physically and mentally disabled, I don't know how much longer I can pretend I'm okay. Then again, as long as I'm working and paying taxes, who cares?

I want to be safe. I want to be loved. I want someone to check on me once in awhile that's not being paid.

I've always known no one is coming to save me except me, but I'm scared the day is coming when I can't do it any longer.
I am so sorry for your situation
I never had human friend
my pets were my friends
sending you hugs and love 🫂❤️
 
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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

Arcanist
May 28, 2024
442
Well, I'm still here. Emotionally volatile but still here
 

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