I actually figured it out. I'm American, and I'm 18. I can just put money away for a fire arm and kill myself whenever
So you don't have any suggestions tho? That's fine honestly, I figured out my problem. Guns. Gotta love the second amendment
I also wanted to mention I'm not efilist. I don't disagree with the idea, yea life shouldn't exist, but efilism isn't a philosophy anymore, it's a delusional movement trying To fight for a nigh Impossible goal. They've become to optimistic. That's why I like suicide and found comfort in guns, because that guarantees death. Living for a goal I don't even think is possible? Stupid.