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saynothing

saynothing

Trying to find a way
Apr 23, 2025
11
Hey, so my account got approved today after lurking on the site for a good few months.

I think I'm finally ready to CTB. I have a bestfriend waiting for me and I truly want to be with her and out of this hellhole.

I've decided on SN (shocker) but it's seemingly difficult with all the recent stuff going on. I've tried looking using the hints available to me already and I'm really getting nowhere.
I'm searching on Y as well with a bunch of keywords and I'm feeling super dumb rn. Could someone pm me some more hints or a link? As I'm just getting nowhere.
Ideally I wanna access DMC as it's had the most success but the risk of welfare checks is playing on my mind. So if u have any other genuine sources please feel free to shoot me a message.
I've read what feels like EVERY thread on SN and getting nowhere.
I know I probably look super strange it being my first day but I have been a lurker for months ha!
Thankyou v much.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,815
Please don't take it personally if, on your very first post, on your second day of membership, none of the few who may have an idea of possible suppliers (most of us don't) aren't rushing to get in touch with you.
If you have been lurking for some time you'll be aware that many pro life groups and individuals, MSM representatives looking for a sensational "investigative disclosure" story and various authorities are on this group under assumed identities and would love to obtain exactly the type of information you seek.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,815
Welcome to the forum!
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
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I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Like Sven says, given the current environment we find ourselves in, and the age if your account, it is unlikely anyone will give you any tips. HOWEVER, hang around (pun intended 🤭), interact with the membership a little and see how things go. I'm sure someone will be willing to help you with more ... Ahhhhmmmmm ... "Direct" hints.

And welcome to SaSu. 🙋🏻
 
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saynothing

saynothing

Trying to find a way
Apr 23, 2025
11
Please don't take it personally if, on your very first post, on your second day of membership, none of the few who may have an idea of possible suppliers (most of us don't) aren't rushing to get in touch with you.
If you have been lurking for some time you'll be aware that many pro life groups and individuals, MSM representatives looking for a sensational "investigative disclosure" story and various authorities are on this group under assumed identities and would love to obtain exactly the type of information you seek.
No I completely agree, I not really expecting much from a first post but if I express my wants from day dot, continue posting and engaging and stuff I'm hoping it will prove my genuine intentions.
I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Like Sven says, given the current environment we find ourselves in, and the age if your account, it is unlikely anyone will give you any tips. HOWEVER, hang around (pun intended 🤭), interact with the membership a little and see how things go. I'm sure someone will be willing to help you with more ... Ahhhhmmmmm ... "Direct" hints.

And welcome to SaSu. 🙋🏻
No, I completely agree, as I would also have concerns sharing anything to anyone in my situations I guess I'm just basically creating a paper trail of my intentions as I continue to use the group and maybe someone will give me a hand :)

And Thankyou!
Welcome to the forum!
Thankyou!
 
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Linda

Linda

Member
Jul 30, 2020
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Hey, so my account got approved today after lurking on the site for a good few months.

I think I'm finally ready to CTB. I have a bestfriend waiting for me and I truly want to be with her and out of this hellhole.

I've decided on SN (shocker) but it's seemingly difficult with all the recent stuff going on. I've tried looking using the hints available to me already and I'm really getting nowhere.
I'm searching on Y as well with a bunch of keywords and I'm feeling super dumb rn. Could someone pm me some more hints or a link? As I'm just getting nowhere.
Ideally I wanna access DMC as it's had the most success but the risk of welfare checks is playing on my mind. So if u have any other genuine sources please feel free to shoot me a message.
I've read what feels like EVERY thread on SN and getting nowhere.
I know I probably look super strange it being my first day but I have been a lurker for months ha!
Thankyou v much.
Welcome to SaSu.
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,342
No I completely agree, I not really expecting much from a first post but if I express my wants from day dot, continue posting and engaging and stuff I'm hoping it will prove my genuine intentions.

No, I completely agree, as I would also have concerns sharing anything to anyone in my situations I guess I'm just basically creating a paper trail of my intentions as I continue to use the group and maybe someone will give me a hand :)

And Thankyou!

Thankyou!
In that case I look forward to your contribution to the forum. And who knows ... When I joined I was hellbent on moving on, as they say. The people here understood and supported me, while also pointing out flaws in my plan, as well as suggesting things that needed to be done before I left. Tying up loose ends as they say. Realizing I had some unfinished business, I set to the task and low and behold -- THAT process led me to consider recovery. While I still have suicidal ideation pretty much daily, I also have a "tool box" to help put those thought in the BACK of my brain, as opposed to the FRONT. I will be forever grateful to the forum and it's members. They have literally given me a huge part of my life back.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,547
I hope that you find the freedom from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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saynothing

saynothing

Trying to find a way
Apr 23, 2025
11
In that case I look forward to your contribution to the forum. And who knows ... When I joined I was hellbent on moving on, as they say. The people here understood and supported me, while also pointing out flaws in my plan, as well as suggesting things that needed to be done before I left. Tying up loose ends as they say. Realizing I had some unfinished business, I set to the task and lo and behold -- THAT process led me to consider recovery. While I still have suicidal ideation pretty much daily, I also have a "tool box" to help put those thought in the BACK of my brain, as opposed to the FRONT. I will be forever grateful to the forum and it's members. They have literally given me a huge part of my life back.
That's really good to hear :)
 
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