Finally set a date

[Danby]

I am at the end of my rope. 2025 has been a shitty year for me. As of tomorrow I will have been unemployed eight months. My unemployment ran out two months ago. I send out resumes every day. I've had a few interviews, but they always go nowhere. My divorce is almost final; we had to sell our house to pay off debts. I am living with my sister and her family, and have been since August. And last week I lost my pickup--I was visiting my youngest daughter and an impaired driver (bitch should not have been operating a motor vehicle) smashed into it. It's a total loss; my brother-in-law had to come get me and bring me back to my sister's place. So I lost my job, my wife, my house, and my truck. It's like I'm living in a bad country/western song.

There is no hope, no end in sight. I am tired of being sad and miserable. I am tired of fighting. I was staying alive for my kids, but they've moved on. Life has passed me by . . . everything has passed me by. It's time to leave this shitty world. So as soon as I get the rejection from the last job interview I had (this past Friday) I'm ordering a shotgun and shells. The date I picked is November 19, which would have been our 31st anniversary. I wanted to do it on my ex's birthday out of spite but that's not until February and I can't last that long. I live in California, so the shotgun and shells will be delivered to a local dealer. I'll see if they can hold it until the 19th; at that point I'll rent a car (I think some places send a shuttle to pick you up), go get the shotgun and shells, drive to a remote area, and catch the bus. It's better this way . . .

 

[Jumpingisnotacrime]

Buddy, I feel you if you check out my last post I also wanted to do it out of spite and just because I'm tired of living. I'm so sorry that the people that you thought would be there for you aren'tpeople are shitty and they need to learn that their actions have consequences.