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anna_bot
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- Aug 7, 2025
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Tomorrow (or well.. sunday), i plan to ctb. My last attempt was using azide without benzos, however, that was quite distressing and I didn't manage to finish the drink.
So, I've purchased Xanax from the internet, which I've tried (1mg) and seen how it's made me feel. I think I'm confident to try again.
I think this is probably the best chance I've got at CTBing. Some thoughts:
- I'm hoping 4mg of Xanax is enough, but also not too much. I am benzo-naive and I understand this is an EXTREMELY high dose (for someone who hasn't used benzos before), so I might experience quite a few side effects. At the same time, dying is stressful so... I suppose it's a compromise. The added benadryl should also help make me even more sleepier.
- Is stopping food at 4pm okay? It gives me 8 hours of fasting which I know isn't ideal but on my last day, I'd also ideally like to not go the whole day without food.
The idea is to get super-duper sleepy, take the azide, and as soon as I lie down, I should be knocked out. Then, when the capsules dissolve in 5-10ish minutes, I'd already be sleeping, sedated by the Xanax, with little to no distress.
Also planning to be listening to music with noise cancellation to sort of make everything feel more ethereal, special and just calmer I suppose.`
Your thoughts are appreciated. Love you <3
So, I've purchased Xanax from the internet, which I've tried (1mg) and seen how it's made me feel. I think I'm confident to try again.
I think this is probably the best chance I've got at CTBing. Some thoughts:
- I'm hoping 4mg of Xanax is enough, but also not too much. I am benzo-naive and I understand this is an EXTREMELY high dose (for someone who hasn't used benzos before), so I might experience quite a few side effects. At the same time, dying is stressful so... I suppose it's a compromise. The added benadryl should also help make me even more sleepier.
- Is stopping food at 4pm okay? It gives me 8 hours of fasting which I know isn't ideal but on my last day, I'd also ideally like to not go the whole day without food.
The idea is to get super-duper sleepy, take the azide, and as soon as I lie down, I should be knocked out. Then, when the capsules dissolve in 5-10ish minutes, I'd already be sleeping, sedated by the Xanax, with little to no distress.
Also planning to be listening to music with noise cancellation to sort of make everything feel more ethereal, special and just calmer I suppose.`
Your thoughts are appreciated. Love you <3
16.00 | Stop all food |
21.00 | Stop all drinks |
22.00 | 1000mg Paracetemol |
22.45 | 4mg Xanax |
23.00 | 500mg Paracetemol |
23.30 | 50mg Diphenhydramine HCl |
00.00 | 5g sodium azide in gelatin pill capsules |