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Bea

Bea

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Sep 1, 2019
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I keep coming to this site to talk with others who get it. I now recognize, however, that I am STILL trying to stay alive ~ after decades of fighting this bitch. If I come to this site, it needs to only be for the purpose of contributing to the Recovery forum. Screw that general chat nonsense which no one has the time to moderate properly and where people flirt with others and try to romantically connect with someone who is ALSO suicidal. (sorry, i just get really annoyed with that). I will absolutely take my own life one day, though, but it does not have to be now. I still got some years kicking in me. I am fucking resilient. Anyone else out there in the same metaphorical boat? FIGHT THE BITCH.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I've been fighting this bitch for many years now and I don't expect it to ever end. I'm partially to blame though as I feed my demons. Natural death scares the shit out of me and I'll eventually take my own life. You're definitely not alone in how you feel on this.
 
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After The End

After The End

The lily whispers, “I wait.”
Jul 31, 2019
135
Do not go gentle into that good night... Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
 
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AvaAdore

AvaAdore

When will it be?
Jul 20, 2020
157
I'm going to keep fighting to stay alive as long as I have the strength. I figure I have at least another decade or maybe a decade and a half left. I'd like to see my son grow up and be able to have the means to achieve whatever he wants without me around.
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
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Screw that general chat nonsense which no one has the time to moderate properly and where people flirt with others and try to romantically connect with someone who is ALSO suicidal. (sorry, i just get really annoyed with that).
ok i thought i was the only one that found literally EVERYTHING wrong with the chat section here. i tend to avoid it at all costs because it only makes me so much worse. its so bad im not even sure why it exists at this point
 
After The End

After The End

The lily whispers, “I wait.”
Jul 31, 2019
135
ok i thought i was the only one that found literally EVERYTHING wrong with the chat section here. i tend to avoid it at all costs because it only makes me so much worse. its so bad im not even sure why it exists at this point

I too believe the chat is replete with problems but I'm lonely enough that I spent plenty of time there all the same and I imagine this is true of many others. I know I've seen, and done good things as a result of interactions there. I'd be curious to know, specifically, why you dislike it as I've heard this sentiment before and I'd rather be part of the solution than the problem.
 
Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
7,031
I too believe the chat is replete with problems but I'm lonely enough that I spent plenty of time there all the same and I imagine this is true of many others. I know I've seen, and done good things as a result of interactions there. I'd be curious to know, specifically, why you dislike it as I've heard this sentiment before and I'd rather be part of the solution than the problem.
I find it to be kind of...... Douchy..... Just a really bad vibe I get from that section of this place. I haven't been there in a long time because I know it's not good so I couldn't give you any examples
 
Mixo

Mixo

Blue
Aug 2, 2020
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I can't relate to wanting to fight - but I used to be like you. Resilient, strong, tough but this world has worn me down so much. I don't have much fight left in me. Having said that, I really commend you sis/bro. Keep moving, keep going - don't let this fucked up world win if you don't have to.
 

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