purplesmoothie
Experienced
- Sep 13, 2018
- 228
Does anyone else struggle with this? What helps you? I've been trying to glow up a bit while I cant ctb yet.
Deleted member 19654
Working towards recovery.
- Jul 9, 2020
- 1,627
Yeah I can't say I'm happy with the way I look. Don't think I've ever really been truly happy with myself. Even when I've received compliments from people in the past I can't bring myself to believe what they say. These feelings tend to fluctuate. For a while I felt better because I put a bit more effort into taking care of myself but I tend to lose motivation.
purplesmoothie
Experienced
- Sep 13, 2018
- 228
Yeah I've been feeling a bit better but I still feel insecure especially because I'm in a mental health facility and constantly around people. What self care things did you find helped the best? For me it was growing out my brows and lashes and treating my kp (strawberry legs skin condition.)
Deleted member 19654
Working towards recovery.
- Jul 9, 2020
- 1,627
Self care in the form of trying to make myself look better. First thing I did was taking the time to tame my eyebrows and shave my moustache
I also bought some fancy bath stuff and just took some long baths. Also another thing is working out. I did a whole month of this workout challenge before I lost motivation. What demotivates me the most is feeling like there's no point to it all if I'm going to ctb eventually.
purplesmoothie
Experienced
- Sep 13, 2018
- 228
Self care in the form of trying to make myself look better. First thing I did was taking the time to tame my eyebrows and shave my moustache
Yeah self-care is the same thing for me. Rn I'm actually taking a footbath in the facility I'm in to help get rid of calluses lmao. I feel you I probably wouldn't be as motivated if I wasn't surrounded by people all the time. The two things I'm focused on it seems are self improvement (mostly of looks) and dying lmao.
I have struggled with this a lot since puberty (I'm now in my mid 30s), mainly in social situations like in bars or house parties. Sometimes I feel so big and ugly (like an ogre), I feel too big for the space I'm in- it's so strange and hard to describe I guess. What helps me the most is that I've removed a lot of mirrors from my home & I don't look at my reflection in other surfaces when out & about, and I set aside at least one evening a week to take a long bath, do a face mask & paint my nails. I don't feel pretty but I don't feel so ogre like.
purplesmoothie
Experienced
- Sep 13, 2018
- 228
I have felt that before too, especially when overweight. It sucks.
That's kinda how I feel too. It all went downhill since puberty and it wasn't until a couple of years ago I figured out what this horrible feeling was. I was planning on buying some new clothes, trying laser hair removal to get rid of facial hair, and going to a local event where I would be less likely to be judged, but covid happened and spoiled literally all of my plans.
