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fremmiefish

fremmiefish

i want to go home ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ
Jul 8, 2025
4
i plan to ctb by partial hanging sometime soon, hopefully this or next month. i wanted to do it next weekend maybe but im terrified of doing it wrong and just crippling myself instead of actually dying. i have everything i need, and im sure i wont be found for at least 30 minutes, but even with a guide i feel like im gonna mess it up.
how do you get over this? all i want is to rest but im too much of a coward to do what i need for it. i hate it. i hate it so much.

ive failed enough in my life. to be a good son, a good brother, a good friend. to also fail in my death would just be pathetic.
 
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TheShadowQueen

TheShadowQueen

≽^- ˕ -^≼
Dec 5, 2023
201
I'm currently struggling with the same feeling since I've attempted multiple times before. IMO unless you just reach your breaking point one day it probably won't go away. Maybe getting drunk the day of it might calm your nerves and make it easier.
 
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kitkat9234

Experienced
Nov 27, 2024
270
I'm too chicken to try again as I fear that I will fail and be worse off if that is even possible. SI is a bitch. I wish I had more reliable methods. Or that someone would put me out of my misery. I hate how hard it is to CTB.
 
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