Venting Family giving me presents while I prepare to ctb in the next month

[madameviolette]

Feeling so bad. They were all so happy to give me gifts they had prepared for me. While I plan on ctb in the next month. I thanked them but couldn't look them in the eyes


Merry Christmas everybody by the way

 

[Alpacachino]

Leaving them a nice long note with a proper explanation will help them understand and come to terms with their loss.

It's good that you have such people in your life. That's something to be thankful for. Many people do not have others in their life that care for them.You're definitely one of the luckier ones in that regard.

 

[DeadManLiving]

My brother gave me a few things for the first time. Sad. I just hope he'll be able to forgive me. The eye contact effect also, same.

But there's very little that can be done under the constraints and circumstances short of a miracle.

I hope you can find you peace.

 

[madameviolette]

Leaving them a nice long note with a proper explanation will help them understand and come to terms with their loss.

It's good that you have such people in your life. That's something to be thankful for. Many people do not have others in their life that care for them.You're definitely one of the luckier ones in that regard.

I agree. They do not understand my problems but they have good intentions

My brother gave me a few things for the first time. Sad. I just hope he'll be able to forgive me. The eye contact effect also, same.

But there's very little that can be done under the constraints and circumstances short of a miracle.

I hope you can find you peace.

Thank you. I'm sure he'll forgive you once he realize your suffering was too much.

I hope you find peace too whatever you choose

 

[orca1717]

Merry Christmas.

I'm sure this is a sentiment a lot of us can relate to. I'm in the same boat really, just feels as though I've wasted their time and energy with the effort they've gone to. I hope the few who care for me can forgive and understand after all is said and done.

 

[unluckysadness]

Feeling so bad. They were all so happy to give me gifts they had prepared for me. While I plan on ctb in the next month. I thanked them but couldn't look them in the eyes


Merry Christmas everybody by the way

Exactly the same for me I was just like a ghost and i took more benzos because these parties give me just more anxiety. Probably the last time I've seen them. So strange feeling.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Same feeling. I got some fresh new Adidas sneakers I'll never get the chance to wear out. I hope someone does.

 

[madameviolette]

Merry Christmas.

I'm sure this is a sentiment a lot of us can relate to. I'm in the same boat really, just feels as though I've wasted their time and energy with the effort they've gone to. I hope the few who care for me can forgive and understand after all is said and done.

The guilt is here but hopefully they'll forgive us

Exactly the same for me I was just like a ghost and i took more benzos because these parties give me just more anxiety. Probably the last time I've seen them. So strange feeling.

It is strange. Seeing all your family members for the last time. Are you planning to ctb in 2026

Same feeling. I got some fresh new Adidas sneakers I'll never get the chance to wear out. I hope someone does.

That made me tear up

 

[unluckysadness]

The guilt is here but hopefully they'll forgive us

It is strange. Seeing all your family members for the last time. Are you planning to ctb in 2026

Yes (unfortunately). I wish I could heal but only a true miracle could save me. I'm too disabled (physically, mentally, socially). I've suffered too much and it's becoming unbearable. I'm realistic. I actually lost my life a long time ago. I believe in afterlife so it's just like buying a new vehicle because this one is broken.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

That made me tear up

Don't worry, I'm too much of a pussy to go through with it (probably)

 

[madameviolette]

Yes (unfortunately). I wish I could heal but only a true miracle could save me. I'm too disabled (physically, mentally, socially). I've suffered too much and it's becoming unbearable. I'm realistic. I actually lost my life a long time ago. I believe in afterlife so it's just like buying a new vehicle because this one is broken.

Same. How long have you struggled for ? If truly there's an afterlife and réincarnation I want to rest beforehand. Life here is too difficult...

 

[unluckysadness]

Same. How long have you struggled for ? If truly there's an afterlife and réincarnation I want to rest beforehand. Life here is too difficult...

Isolated (no work, no friends, no partner) since almost 5 years, but suffering since I was born 43 years ago. It's too long... I deserve rest and I wish you the same

 

[Morris1211]

Feeling so bad. They were all so happy to give me gifts they had prepared for me. While I plan on ctb in the next month. I thanked them but couldn't look them in the eyes


Merry Christmas everybody by the way

What is your method?

 

[madameviolette]

What is your method?

Firearms

Isolated (no work, no friends, no partner) since almost 5 years, but suffering since I was born 43 years ago. It's too long... I deserve rest and I wish you the same

43 years is a long time to live. I can't imagine living another 50 more years