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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
659
I just want it all to end.
I know theres a possibility he will wake up and find me, but the urges are too strong tonight.
I just hate being alive too much
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
Hey lovely :heart: is there anything specific that's happened today to make you feel this way? Sending you love :heart:
 
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HorribleFeelings1

HorribleFeelings1

Its a hard knock life
Jan 18, 2020
321
Hey talk to us (or me if you wanna do it personally ) anything specific making you wanna do it today? Afraid of getting caught right? We are here (:
 
SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
659
Hey lovely :heart: is there anything specific that's happened today to make you feel this way? Sending you love :heart:
Nothing has really happened, I just feel like shit.
Hey talk to us (or me if you wanna do it personally ) anything specific making you wanna do it today? Afraid of getting caught right? We are here (:
I am terrified of getting caught.
Those thoughts are definitely getting worse again


It is now the morning and the urges are still just as strong...why cant this end?
 
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HorribleFeelings1

HorribleFeelings1

Its a hard knock life
Jan 18, 2020
321
Nothing has really happened, I just feel like shit.

I am terrified of getting caught.
Those thoughts are definitely getting worse again


It is now the morning and the urges are still just as strong...why cant this end?
Where do you live if you don't mind me asking, you mentioned it was morning but it's night time here in California, do you have a CTB date? A method?
 
SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
659
Where do you live if you don't mind me asking, you mentioned it was morning but it's night time here in California, do you have a CTB date? A method?
I live in the UK.
No I dont, either hanging or jumping but I would prefer jumping
 
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Brackenshire

Arcanist
Feb 23, 2020
467
Is there anything you can do like listen to music or go for a run that can get your thoughts off it for a bit
Sending a big hug your way
 
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victoria91

Student
Jan 15, 2019
114
I'm also from the UK and feel the same. Please feel free to message me if you want a chat. Sending hugs x
 
Remember to forget

Remember to forget

Member
Mar 6, 2020
98
I'm from the UK, if you want to talk then don't be afraid to PM me x
 
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Schweppes

Espresso Depresso
Apr 20, 2020
72
I can completely understand. I also have urges to harm and to try and die - I got diagnosed with OCD
 

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