meowzers3276
Student
- Mar 28, 2026
- 161
ever since may 3, my planned ctb date, my failure to do so... everything in the world is joining together to make living as painful as it can be
im tired of being criticized at my job when ive dedicated two years to this job for minimum wage, five days a week, 35 hours a week, never days off. now i have a second job to help pay rent so my energy has been lower. but i still do my best at this job and i geniunely enjoy it sometimes. one of my coworkers is an older gentleman and recently he's just constantly been left vague notes about things that ive failed at instead of just personally contacting me, it feels humiliating especially when a lot of the times, its things the other coworker did or things i didnt even do in the first place and usually it wouldnt bother me, but im so sensitive to it all right now. i almost ctb last night but i only cut myself and then took xanax to calm down. i knew i would have botched it trying to do it on such impulse. it seems im going to have to return to dsl and try to get sn again whenever i have the cash. wish me luck, i hope to be dead before i turn 20 in October. :-)
edit -- it now seems DSL no longer exists, i am begging, if anyone knows about the updated site or sources, please PM me! i am from the u.s. :-)
im tired of being criticized at my job when ive dedicated two years to this job for minimum wage, five days a week, 35 hours a week, never days off. now i have a second job to help pay rent so my energy has been lower. but i still do my best at this job and i geniunely enjoy it sometimes. one of my coworkers is an older gentleman and recently he's just constantly been left vague notes about things that ive failed at instead of just personally contacting me, it feels humiliating especially when a lot of the times, its things the other coworker did or things i didnt even do in the first place and usually it wouldnt bother me, but im so sensitive to it all right now. i almost ctb last night but i only cut myself and then took xanax to calm down. i knew i would have botched it trying to do it on such impulse. it seems im going to have to return to dsl and try to get sn again whenever i have the cash. wish me luck, i hope to be dead before i turn 20 in October. :-)
edit -- it now seems DSL no longer exists, i am begging, if anyone knows about the updated site or sources, please PM me! i am from the u.s. :-)
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