Every morning I wake up to total despair

[Polly]

And one step closer to the end.

Tofay I took somethinh go back to sleep for a couple hours. Can't bring myself to face the day yet.

 

[Flippy]

I'm sorry you are feeling so low :-( I hope that some extra sleep will make things a bit more tolerable. My opinion, take as much sleep as you need, screw everything else. It can wait!

 

[Readytogo805]

Mornings are the worst for me too. I dread the sun coming up.

 

[Chalken]

Waking up sucks. There's always this sense of dread that I will have to face the day, go to school, etc. Sometimes I just stay in bed and go back to sleep since I just can't do it.

 

[Nem]

Seeing the sun come up is like pure dread, it is a reminder that things are not going well and that I shouldn't be around.
peace/hugs

 

[randomz]

Morning hater here too.

 

[LMLN]

Morning is awful for me too, I feel devastated and unable to cope when I wake up. I'm so sorry. Nothing but love and compassion for you and all fellow sufferers. ❤❤❤

 

[easywayout]

Mornings are the worst.

 

[daffo]

morning are bad because (at least for me) there is that split second when i wake up, that tiny tiny frame of time immediately after opening my eyes in which i cannot feel my illness and the dark thoughts. after that, everything crashes inside my mind in short time, like a kick in the face and i start shacking. came with various excuses sometimes at work, because i'm always late. sometimes shacking takes like an eternity to end, especially after a night cryng.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Sorry you feel like this Polly. I understand the need to retreat into sleep. I would too if I could.

I hate the nights more cus I barely sleep. Awake in the cold and the dark is not nice.

 

[AlreadyGone]

I can relate to this. I do not wake up in despair, but I always wake up to the same thoughts every morning...which is the reason I want to CTB. I feel it sets the stage for my entire day and if I can stop waking up to those thoughts, I would be in a much better place.

 

[xBrialesana]

I feel that a lot. I have to heavily drug myself nightly just to get the 2-3 hours I get, and when I do wake up it's in a PTSD panic and I immediately pop a Xanax and go smoke a joint. I hate feeling like a drug addict when that's not my life (no judge, you do you!) can't wait to be out of this hell. Whether this makes me a coward or not I'd rather face death than Xanax withdrawal (1mg 3x a day since I was 12, now 25, f that!). Fuck doctors.

Anyways I'm sorry that you're hurting :( I hope you can find comfort in the lovely members here. And I hope you're back asleep right now <3

 

[WhiteEyes]

I always pray a stray meteor will come through the window while I sleep.
It never does...

 

[Lostandfound7]

Have to agree with u on that honey. I hate the mornings too n everyday look forward the going to bed...U have all the support u need right here..we love u