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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,803
I got what I wanted. Be careful what you wish for! Anhedonia is here, baby!!!

Even the booze doesn't do shit anymore. It's only good for stacking with sedatives to sleep. None of the ones I have in hand will kill me reliably, so that's not an option either.

Reddit, here, maybe a video game, sleep, rinse and repeat. No pleasure in any of it to be had.

On the plus side, nothing stopping me from catching the bus now! :-D
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
That's exactly what happened to me last year.
I used to drink everyday so as to escape to another reality and try to sleep during the hangovers but I got to a point in which I could do nothing but be like a statue in my bed, looking at the roof and thinking of ctb.

I'm really sorry you're going through this. Hope you can get better, somehow...

Hugs and love,

Matt
 
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BottomlessPit

BottomlessPit

Staring at the edge
Apr 28, 2021
423
Reddit, here, maybe a video game, sleep, rinse and repeat. No pleasure in any of it to be had.
lol, same here. Reddit, SS, the occasional game, and lots of Youtube, but that's it. My life has been like this for a few years though. I haven't felt real excitement in a long time.
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
Porn is my booze. Pain in my groin & testicles is my hangover. I'm waiting for my dick to fall off from constant abuse, then I'll be completely dead.
 
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