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Maki9

Maki9

Member
May 8, 2026
18
Hello everybody, I hope you all had a great day.

While there are plenty of people horribly afraid of the idea of death and after-life inexistence,

I, and many of you probably do so too, find so much comfort in exactly that.

Eternal life, as in, being reborn again and again and again, and no amount of ctb's will save you from this endless cycle of suffering, this is scaring me the most. you are stuck and there is nothing at all that you can do.

I dearly hope this life is the first and last one I will have to endure. I don't want eternal life, not even in Heaven. spare me, God. Please, just let me rest in peace.

To me, while asleep, I am the happiest I could ever be. Death to somewhat feel remotely like that, it's all I could ever ask for.

Does anybody relate? Any thoughts? Thank you for reading.

Warmest regards to everyone :heart:
 
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PanaxMan

Water fasting until death (Currently homeless)
Apr 11, 2023
684
Hello everybody, I hope you all had a great day.

While there are plenty of people horribly afraid of the idea of death and after-life inexistence,

I, and many of you probably do so too, find so much comfort in exactly that.

Eternal life, as in, being reborn again and again and again, and no amount of ctb's will save you from this endless cycle of suffering, this is scaring me the most. you are stuck and there is nothing at all that you can do.

I dearly hope this life is the first and last one I will have to endure. I don't want eternal life, not even in Heaven. spare me, God. Please, just let me rest in peace.

To me, while asleep, I am the happiest I could ever be. Death to somewhat feel remotely like that, it's all I could ever ask for.

Does anybody relate? Any thoughts? Thank you for reading.

Warmest regards to everyone :heart:
Well if I was born with different life circumstances then I wouldn't mind eternal life and if in each life I retained my memories from my last life it would be better
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,457
I understand as all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just want to be permanently unconscious free from the torture of existing and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, to me existence will just always be the most terrible mistake that just causes all this dreadful cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and all I want is to be free from it all, for me only non-existence could ever be positive.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, it's just so terrible to me how this existence was even imposed at all, non-existence is just all I hope for, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any kind of existence, to suffer in this existence is just always the most torturous, futile burden to me, all that existence does is just cause suffering.
 
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Maki9

Maki9

Member
May 8, 2026
18
I understand as all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just want to be permanently unconscious free from the torture of existing and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, to me existence will just always be the most terrible mistake that just causes all this dreadful cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and all I want is to be free from it all, for me only non-existence could ever be positive.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, it's just so terrible to me how this existence was even imposed at all, non-existence is just all I hope for, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any kind of existence, to suffer in this existence is just always the most torturous, futile burden to me, all that existence does is just cause suffering.
Thank you for your message ❤️🫶 I wish you the best
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,473
Yes, I definitely agree. Any type of life feels so risky. Plus- I can't fathom how heaven could be a perfect place even- without changing certain aspects of our personalities- so that we all get on. So then- will we even be ourselves then? My Dad would end up with two wives for one thing- who I doubt would want to share him. I see non existence forever as the far safer option.
 
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endboss

Student
Apr 8, 2026
116
Hello everybody, I hope you all had a great day.

While there are plenty of people horribly afraid of the idea of death and after-life inexistence,

I, and many of you probably do so too, find so much comfort in exactly that.

Eternal life, as in, being reborn again and again and again, and no amount of ctb's will save you from this endless cycle of suffering, this is scaring me the most. you are stuck and there is nothing at all that you can do.

I dearly hope this life is the first and last one I will have to endure. I don't want eternal life, not even in Heaven. spare me, God. Please, just let me rest in peace.

To me, while asleep, I am the happiest I could ever be. Death to somewhat feel remotely like that, it's all I could ever ask for.

Does anybody relate? Any thoughts? Thank you for reading.

Warmest regards to everyone :heart:
Yes, sleeping is the best use of my time. I don't suffer when I am asleep.
 
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SoverignDreamer97

I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
229
There are four rules:

1. You cannot experience death, for it would be like getting put under anesthesia. (Ecclesiastes 9:5)

2. Suicide is not a sin which leads to hell (separation), but rather, it is unbelief. (John 3:16-21)

3. Despite all that you do to make your exit foolproof, there is always that one percent chance you'll survive simply because it "wasn't your time yet". (Psalm 33:10-11)

4. The world hates liabilities and would rather they not exist, as much as the rules dictate that all life is inherently valuable. (Proverbs 25:17)

  • Even in a community of liabilities, there is no place for a liability. (John 15:18)
Therefore, as Suncha Ferreira from the Victus Group commands, "control the things you can control," for whoever has, to them more will be given until they have it abundantly, but those that do not have, even what they think they have shall be taken from them. (Matthew 13:12)
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
443
Hello everybody, I hope you all had a great day.

While there are plenty of people horribly afraid of the idea of death and after-life inexistence,

I, and many of you probably do so too, find so much comfort in exactly that.

Eternal life, as in, being reborn again and again and again, and no amount of ctb's will save you from this endless cycle of suffering, this is scaring me the most. you are stuck and there is nothing at all that you can do.

I dearly hope this life is the first and last one I will have to endure. I don't want eternal life, not even in Heaven. spare me, God. Please, just let me rest in peace.

To me, while asleep, I am the happiest I could ever be. Death to somewhat feel remotely like that, it's all I could ever ask for.

Does anybody relate? Any thoughts? Thank you for reading.

Warmest regards to everyone :heart:
I actually wouldn't even mind being reborn. But if I want to be injected into myself at exactly 28. August 2017 with all my memories in tact.

If I am allowed just one dying wish it would be that.
I would work on my mental issues before they become what they are now and save the only good thing I had in Life.

Highly unlikely but who knows.
There are four rules:

1. You cannot experience death, for it would be like getting put under anesthesia. (Ecclesiastes 9:5)

2. Suicide is not a sin which leads to hell (separation), but rather, it is unbelief. (John 3:16-21)

3. Despite all that you do to make your exit foolproof, there is always that one percent chance you'll survive simply because it "wasn't your time yet". (Psalm 33:10-11)

4. The world hates liabilities and would rather they not exist, as much as the rules dictate that all life is inherently valuable. (Proverbs 25:17)

  • Even in a community of liabilities, there is no place for a liability. (John 15:18)
Therefore, as Suncha Ferreira from the Victus Group commands, "control the things you can control," for whoever has, to then more will be given until they have it abundantly, but those that do not have, even what they think they have shall be taken from them. (Matthew 13:12)
Is this schizophrenia?
Or what exactly is this
 
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SoverignDreamer97

SoverignDreamer97

I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
229
I actually wouldn't even mind being reborn. But if I want to be injected into myself at exactly 28. August 2017 with all my memories in tact.

If I am allowed just one dying wish it would be that.
I would work on my mental issues before they become what they are now and save the only good thing I had in Life.

Highly unlikely but who knows.

Is this schizophrenia?
Or what exactly is this
Schizophrenia? That would surely be all the more reason for me to die, for the world has no place for defects.

1. "You cannot please everyone; control the things you can control." ~Suncha Ferreira (Victus Group)/Mark 8:36, Matthew 13:12

2. The grass withers, the flowers fade, because the breath of the Lord blows upon it;
surely the people are grass.
The grass withers, the flowers fade, but the word of our God stands forever. (Isaiah 40:7-8)

3.
The world hates liabilities, and would rather they not exist, as much as the rules dictate that all life is inherently valuable. (Proverbs 25:17)
  • Even in a community of liabilities, there is no place for a liability. (John 15:18)
Therefore, as much as I desire to live, and that a world without me would be awfully dull and grey, this isn't up to me; if I die, I die; though my father, mother, and the whole world forsake me, the Lord will bring me up. (Esther 4:11, Psalm 27:10)
 
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