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Before going CTB you would....

  • Enjoy yourself

  • Suffer yourself

  • Others


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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
If you have decided to CTB someday, would you enjoy the rest of your time as much as you can? Or suffering yourself because you don't think you deserve any joy?
 
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satou

satou

not yet
Sep 3, 2018
225
When I decide to do it, it will probably be at most day or two before I go through with it. Any longer and I would probably cancel. And I expect it will be at a time of mental anguish. So I would suffer, but not by choice.
 
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Miss clefable

Enlightened
Aug 23, 2018
1,577
I'm not going by scheduled dates anymore and I will both enjoy and suffer because I'm messed up
 
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fuckthis

fuckthis

I've made up my mind.
Sep 23, 2018
263
I would order a lot of drugs to my house and enjoy the time I had left.
 
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blueming

blueming

if we can stand outside the borders of time
Sep 21, 2018
258
Both, in a way. I think I'll try to enjoy myself as much as I can before I die to make living a bit more bearable. But at the same time living just makes me suffer anyway.
 
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IronicFail

Member
Sep 27, 2018
62
I'd want to enjoy... But I'd suffer
 
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wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,827
So I would suffer
 
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Brokenanddeadinside

Brokenanddeadinside

Arcanist
Aug 8, 2018
404
Idk probably suffer
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
164
Guess I would suffer myself too...I can't "enjoy" things anymore.
 
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Taylored

I've figured it out
Sep 20, 2018
321
I would travel the city and enjoy the sights and cheap food. Before CTB.
 
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Morning Angel

Useless Broken Wings
Aug 8, 2018
618
I tried to have my last hurrahs to "enjoy" some last human things but couldn't enjoy them, really. Suffering seems to be the default now.
 
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IG959

Arcanist
Aug 14, 2018
430
Definitely enjoy
 
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lost illusions

lost illusions

bye
Sep 12, 2018
548
Enjoy if possible
 
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iiii5555

Student
Sep 12, 2018
121
Well, logically, to enjoy yourself would be the more rational answer, i guess. But that can vary depending on your level of pessimism.
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
I voted for enjoy, but to be honest, my ctb will probably be sparked from not enjoying myself for a while. If that makes sense.
 
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