Discussion Dreaming of being hospitalized

[squillykilly]

Sometimes I enjoy the idea of being hospitalized, whether it be a failed attempt, and illness or an injury. I like the idea of everyone caring about me even just a bit. Sometimes ot goes as far as paralysis from ODing and relearning how to walk... Maybe that's weird, does anyone else think like that?
Also here's a drawing to represent my feelings

 

[byou]

Oh my fucking god yes, i think about it almsot all of the time,

 

[jazzcat621]

I often fantasize being in a coma after an attempt, waking up to everyone's excitement, people rushing over to the hospital to see me.

 

[jeevasO-o]

Yess!! I always think about that. I always wish it so badly, but I'm scared at getting seriously injured forever or die when I don't want to yet. Also I'd be miserable if nobody ends up actually caring much or coming.

 

[gasforme]

Sometimes I wish to be in a coma so that life isn't my problem anymore

 

[ipmanwc0]

Same but I realized that people don't really care if you do something like this unless they care about you already

 

[AngelBritney]

It's normal to dream about this. I do this, too, sometimes but with the end that I'll be dead by my own hands. I don't tell anyone about this or else they would tell me I am not suicidal and do this for drama-attention.

 

[esoteric2026]

I remember when I was younger, I would also dream about hospitals cause the only time I felt someone cares about me was there (doctors check up on you, etc). Not so these days anymore as my abilty to feel anything is far gone.

 

[thefarter]

omgggg ive felt this way before. but in my case, i didn't want anyone to show up and care me. i just wanted to pause life. like everything was too much i just wanted to click PAUSE

 

[squillykilly]

I don't tell anyone about this or else they would tell me I am not suicidal and do this for drama-attention.

I feel like the thought of even wanting to do it for some sort of attention proves within itself that you are mentally unwell in some way and should be worried about

Also I'd be miserable if nobody ends up actually caring much or coming.

Sometimes I lowkirkenuenly enjoy the thought of no one coming to see me weirdly enough... I just like miserable thoughts

 

[badatparties]

Absolutely fucking not. That would solve nothing.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i definitely wonder about it sometimes. none of my attempts caused that much harm to me yet but i know there's a possibility they will and i do wonder how it would be if an attempt hurt me bad but didnt kill me.