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litany_of_thoughts

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Jan 19, 2026
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Hi, looking for some advice on a hypothetical

I've previously tried and nearly succeeded to CTB with around 9-10g of DPH but while delirious ended up getting help. Even when receiving help it very nearly worked, so I believe that adding a sedative to make SI less likely would be ideal in any future attempt.

I'm wondering if benzos (or, very preferably, something OTC) would help with sedating me from doing that in the future? I'd be looking for something that just sedates me while the delirium kicks in ideally, as last time I'm fairly certain it would've worked had I not had so much energy to seek out help/physically get back to a safe place

if anyone has any resources on what might work, I'd appreciate it! Alcohol does immediately come to mind, but I drink fairly frequently and have quite a tolerance, so an alternative would be ideal