Double suicides

[burninghill]

Sorry for posting twice in a short period, I try not to.

I've been thinking a lot about how desperate I was to complete a double suicide last year. It's one of those things where I was so scared and doubted myself to the point where I was sure I could only do it with a partner.

The idea still really appeals to me, honestly. It would have to be someone I'd known for a long time. Or at least felt really close to. No stranger.

I met someone who was really eager to do it with me, with anyone. They'd partaken in a previous double suicide attempt where their partner had died, they just wanted someone to hold them while they did it. They had only just recovered when we met.

Our methods were too different and I knew I couldn't offer them that kind of support. Their attempt date was October 30th and my second attempt was November 1st. I still don't know if they lived. I think about it a lot.

The closer and closer I got to having an actual partner to commit suicide with, the more I realised it wasn't for me, or maybe the people I met weren't for me.

What're your thoughts on double suicides/ suicide partners?

 

[amor.dor]

I almost did it with my ex, I think it's difficult for me to do it with another person, it requires immense trust in the other person.There's always a chance that person might want to spare you, or even give up.

 

[Samira_Hura]

I think it can be comforting. If you commit suicide alone, you'll find yourself in a pro-life world until the last moment when you decide to do it, and you'll be alone with the thoughts of pro-life people ricocheting around in your head. If, on the other hand, you have a partner, you can also decide to spend your last days alone with them, and then the conversations are definitely not pro-life and therefore tend to normalize suicide. This can make things much easier, but it's subjective. There are definitely people who prefer to do everything alone than those who prefer having company. Group suicides also exist, and the dynamics are even more different. I truly believe it's something subjective that should be respected, because we all have different sensitivities.

 

[SASU-KE]

Just like you, I would also do it with the right person. I have someone I've known for quite some time whose date may be coming up.But I can't accompany them yet since I need to be around as long as my mother is still alive.

 

[Afterglow]

I had a plan like that at one point as well. It was supposed to be in October of last year, but unfortunately she ended up taking her own life well before that date we set. I still miss her, and I still wish we could have gone out together.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Tbh when I searched for methods I thought there might be people in my shoes looking for the same information, so my search extended to suicide pacts which brought me to this site. But since joining and finding SN, I prefer to go solo. I don't see myself planning to ctb with someone else unless circumstances change drastically.

 

[singingcrow]

I had a plan like that at one point as well. It was supposed to be in October of last year, but unfortunately she ended up taking her own life well before that date we set. I still miss her, and I still wish we could have gone out together.

I am so sorry

Sorry for posting twice in a short period, I try not to.

I've been thinking a lot about how desperate I was to complete a double suicide last year. It's one of those things where I was so scared and doubted myself to the point where I was sure I could only do it with a partner.

The idea still really appeals to me, honestly. It would have to be someone I'd known for a long time. Or at least felt really close to. No stranger.

I met someone who was really eager to do it with me, with anyone. They'd partaken in a previous double suicide attempt where their partner had died, they just wanted someone to hold them while they did it. They had only just recovered when we met.

Our methods were too different and I knew I couldn't offer them that kind of support. Their attempt date was October 30th and my second attempt was November 1st. I still don't know if they lived. I think about it a lot.

The closer and closer I got to having an actual partner to commit suicide with, the more I realised it wasn't for me, or maybe the people I met weren't for me.

What're your thoughts on double suicides/ suicide partners?

as much as I like the idea of it

I think suicide should be a personal thing

 

[unstabledolly]

its something ive fantasised about for years. i thought that once i found a partner we would both be on the same page with it and do it together. but i ended up dating someone who is completely opposed to the idea of suicide. im too scared to do it on my own and i want someone to hold me through it, but i guess ive resigned myself to the fact that im gonna have to go through with it on my own afterall.

 

[left0vers]

To me, knowing that someone else is beside me, doing the same thing, would alleviate the anxiety of going. They support me, they understand me, and they'll help if something doesn't work out right away.

And if it's somebody I know closely, and our method is painless and clean, then it's just so nice and touching. Imagine your last moment being an embrace. That's wonderful.

 

[imitoto]

I think it would be nice to go with someone but I also want to listen to my own music. Maybe virtually is better?

 

[joey2424]

I had wanted this in the past. My main concern is the idea of surviving the attempt and my partner does not. This sounds very traumatic and I wonder if I would have to speak to police? Just awful. In theory though, it would be ideal to not have to be alone. The closer I get to ctb, the more sad I am about what my final moments will look like (alone, fearful).

 

[zoftchan]

I would want to but I don't really have anyone who wants to

 

[Happy Cat]

I am desperate enough to do it with almost anyone. I have my own reasons for not wanting to do it alone

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'd possibly consider it with someone who I was very close to- family or friend- if we were both sure.

 

[dreaming]

I think I'd like that if I ever found someone I felt completely comfortable with who was also wanted to do it.
Which I think would be hard to come by for me.
It would be nice, I don't want to be alone if/when I do it, but it doesn't feel very likely for me.

 

[Forveleth]

I do not want the complications of having another person involved. I am a loner and have absolutely no problem dying alone. I would prefer it.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I had a suicide-partner; we wanted to hang ourselves together, planned everything meticulously, and prepared everything. The problem was that he wanted me to hang him first, and I simply couldn't do that. Finally, he lost patience and hanged himself from "our" tree last May.

 

[purpp37]

Everyone has backed out. I was always the one who was most willing, everyone else was too much of a pussy to go through with it despite me trying to help them.