It's hard for me to describe and I have communication difficulties so I hope it's understandable.<3 My first experience was a message although it wasn't auditory or in a form of text or language, but I understood it as though it was, much more directly; it was offering me a path to follow God if I wanted to. It was as though my hurting mind was touched by God; something so simple and gentle and clear in one way, but at the same time so indescribably complex. I only know how to describe this aspect as visual although it's not accurate that way: there was an imprinting of a cross, shaped of white, like light or something, yet it isn't exactly a visual, rather something like a connection.
I had been isolated and neglected as a child, almost never having contact with people and society. I understood a concept of religion and spirituality, and I even heard of some names of religions, but the concepts were conveyed to me (and eventually set in my mind) as ridiculous and bad. Despite this, I still felt some desire to reach out to a vague idea of some kind of "God" without letting that be known. But I never felt anything but silence in response, so I couldn't believe in it; I simply yearned for a spiritual reality. This is to explain that my mindset had finally developed to become set and had firmly spiraled into some kind of nihilism. Due to both my childhood experiences and this mindset, there was no other path for myself other than suicide. I couldn't do it successfully at the house without being caught and hurt, so I kept trying to think of plans of how I could get away far enough across the mountains that I wouldn't be found or followed and could be successful.
This is around the time I had the previously described experience and it changed me so much. Not only was it a profound connection and guiding message for me to follow God, but it opened a spiritual connection I never had. And it allowed me to get away and begin a completely different life. I don't claim that I know something is a certain way regarding religion or spirituality, but I just have my beliefs due to my experiences, so I hope I can communicate that in the right way.
Since then, I've had experiences of seeing and interacting with beings, which I believe to be what are referred to as angels in my religion Christianity. And as I grow more spiritually connected, I feel their presence and can connect with them more often. They are very loving and guiding; I would have never survived this long without these experiences and guidance. And I feel that they are still guiding me away from suicide because of difficulties with childhood trauma. (I don't want to end things this way but I've felt scared that I may at some point of overwhelm since I have tried in the past.) I may have also had a negative experience with others of these beings when I was much younger, but I'm not sure.
Cosmology and Fundamental Physics interest me deeply, and the more I learn about the universe the more I feel that there is a vast part of reality that we aren't able to currently comprehend definitively with our tools and measurements and ways of thinking which are based on our own frameworks. So much information about the universe is categorized as anomalies. So much is invisible or beyond our reach, and we just have to theorize the rest of it based on the truly little we do know. We have learned far more with recent technology than ever before, and yet it continues to lead to new unexplained integral discoveries. This isn't the reason I believe in God, (even if everything was known, my beliefs are based on my experiences) but this is just where my thoughts lead me. Maybe despite the anomalies and unexplained limits of our current models, we have a basic grasp of everything reality essentially is, and there's nothing much beyond that, like some people believe. But to me it seems that we might be more like little ants who just barely came into existence on the cosmic timeline, and are currently trying to comprehend a tiny area of dirt, evolutionarily incapable of even conceiving of the city around us.
if the being is eternal then Occam's Razor 
would suggest that the universe is eternal and remove the superfluous part which adds needless complexity.
