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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
473
These meds have absolutely ruined me. Horrible irreversible side effects requiring even more meds….. horrible withdrawals. I'm stuck on them and they don't even really work anymore. Hospitalizations traumatized me. Therapy makes me feel worse. But that's just me. Everyone is different.
 
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Steve Vermont

Student
Feb 27, 2020
161
I am on a very low dose of benzos. 1.3 mg per day, at night, basically. 20mg for Esc. Esc seems pretty mild.
 
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username12345

Student
Aug 18, 2024
123
I was just wondering for the people who went to therapy, got medication etc whether that did help in any way? I have got to the point where I am too tired of this and I can only see ctb as the way out. But am I stupid for at least not talking to someone and trying to get help idk? I just don't want to go through with talking to someone and it doesn't help and where I haven't spoken to someone ever, it feels normal to feel this way, which is why I haven't really thought to get 'help' as silly as it sounds. Thanks
The last time I got therapy it was really awkward cause the therapist got a boner in the middle of therapy and it was just never acknowledged and he was more annoyed of my PTSD symptoms inconveniencing him than realizing I've been going through hell alone to have compassion about that. And then medication I didn't feel better I felt numb which is still depression.

What helped is when these random people helped me. Community and support in general will heal more wounds than tending to symptoms ever could. You need to get to the root of the issue. That's not to say therapy or medicine isn't helpful cause it is, but if your stress is situational, it's the situation that needs to change.
 
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DTA

Desperado
May 3, 2025
96
Traditional psychotherapy has a really low success rate, but it makes big money for the therapists.
Victor Frankl was an early psychotherapist (and Jewish concentration camp prisoner) who pioneered 'logotherapy'. He noted that people who found a goal to focus on, a purpose, and simply had someone to talk to showed dramatic improvement and often required no further treatment. But there's no money in a cure.
He authored a book called "Man's Search for Meaning" which I highly recommend. It's short too. Maybe it could help you?
I know from my own experience that focusing my life on my artwork and dreams (no matter how far out) helped my depression a lot. It didn't cure it. But it took away the utter hopelessness. It gave me something to strive for while remaining uncaring if I die or not.
 
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Elsie

Member
Jun 4, 2025
55
How can I do therapy if talking make me more nervous... I'm too shy urghhhh. They suggest me for CBT but I feel like it's so trouble and shy 🫣
 
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Broken@25

Member
Apr 22, 2025
63
Fuck no it nailed my coffin. I am already dead inside my body just has to catch up soon. But everyone is different I was already way too broken too late for me to help.
Fuck no it nailed my coffin. I am already dead inside my body just has to catch up soon. But everyone is different I was already way too broken too late for me to help.
Fuck no it nailed my coffin. I am already dead inside my body just has to catch up soon. But everyone is different I was already way too broken too late for me to help.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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For me, its situational and the situation I am in is spiraling downwards. I am talking to a counselor as well as a psychiatrist, but nothing can do will change the fact that any chance of salvaging a good life may be over.
Agree. A bad situation cannot be helped. I'm debating breaking off therapy and most meds.

I do this and want to ctb anyway. When my life had stability I was fine.
 
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divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,913
Therapy has helped a little, not in the sense of wanting to actually live, I still want to die but to help me understand my trauma and thats its valid . It is nice to have someone empathetic to talk to. Meds never worked much or made me worse. Electroshock therapy fucked up my memory, I dont suggest it
 

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