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It seems so weird that it's even possible. But I've done my fair share of testing, pharmaceutical grade stuff too. Just nothing.
What are you talking about? Did you expect N to provide you with a high?! lol
I said it worked, it just wasn't recreational or euphoric. Same with the other drug classes I listed. I didn't try all of those today but I've tried on multiple other occasions and felt all of the typical effects aside from euphoria, even when I had pharmaceutical-grade prescribed in my name. So it wasn't an issue of being ripped off or having the wrong chemical.
Yes, considering it was a top drug of abuse for decades and many found it recreational. I felt drunk without the mood changes. Similar to a heavy benzo dose. I never found benzos recreational either although many others do. I don't get euphoria from opiates or amphetamines either.
If you're using it recreational multiple times, you'll build a tolerance so that even if you have N left, it simply won't work in the PPeH listed dose. They warm about tolerance impacting the efficacy. I just tried once to make sure it's real, since I've tried other barbs before and know what general feeling to expect. Even with my single sample dose, I will wait a few weeks to reset tolerance.
I wonder if that's related to a certain type of depression, and why we can't ever get better. I think it says something if even such strong chemicals that are intended to force euphoria don't even produce mood improvements.
I used it 4 times. I guess I will have to wait few months without using it to reset tolerance.
I crashed my truck into my house at about one mph. I fell off my bike badly. I fell backwards into my shower. Driving on N is dangerous. I used about 17 grams but not all at once.
Would also like to know. Sounds like a benzo analogue horror story.
Definitely similar to analogues.
They are/were popular because of their ability to desensitize the human psyche. In most persons the effects are a positive euphoric reaction. Because let's face it; why drink or use any psychoactive substance if you don't get a reward right? However it has been my experience during my time working in substance abuse and psyche that not everyone experiences the euphoria. It's rare but not so rare that you don't hear about it now and then. It would appear that you may indeed be one of these rare individuals. I'm sure my response does nothing to alleviate your pain; but I've found sometimes through knowledge we gain what we need to seek another avenue. I've sampled all you have mentioned and I find that because of my high tolerance for alcohol that many of the other substances have little or no effect. When I was taken in to an ER because of my stated intent to CTB I confounded the VA Drs. BAC came back as .34. and I was still walking and talking. I suppose my point is that; (and aren't you glad I'm getting to it?) If a person has used other psychoactive substances to high levels over their lifetime that they inadvertently build tolerance to other drugs that work in a similar fashion in the receptors of our neurons. Bottom line is that to get what you need to alter the conciousness you need a dose high enough to be considered a "Heavy thing". An expression my generation used to describe someone with an addiction so serious that to get their high the dose is one step short of lethality. Thanks for following me this far. Hope you get where/what you need friend.
Do you really have to wait that long after just trying it once? Doesn't tolerance take a little while to develop?
It takes 2 weeks of daily use for a standard sleep dose to stop working. I don't think there's any data on barbiturate tolerance in the context of suicide but I'm pretty sure one use won't do anything.
