Does anyone else here feel like they're being forced to live?

[cyandude]

I've been feeling like this a lot recently, like my psychiatrists are forcing me into staying alive. anyone else feel this way?

 

[theboy]

I feel that the doctors and my family are forcing me to live when I just want to rest forever.

 

[sserafim]

I think so. I told my psychiatrist that I didn't want to be a real adult or live past 25, and he said that most women live well into their 80s. This made me so mad. It actually strengthened my desire to die young to defy this.

 

[Deleted member 8119]

I wanted to die ten years ago. Today, I'm mostly recovered, but I'm still pissed my recovery was forced in first place lol. This is mostly fine now, but I still wish I could've done it.

 

[cyandude]

I think so. I told my psychiatrist that I didn't want to be a real adult or live past 25, and he said that most women live well into their 80s. This made me so mad. It actually strengthened my desire to die young to defy this.

hearing that now, yeah, i feel the same way lol. i WILL die before I "live well into my 80s"

 

[sserafim]

hearing that now, yeah, i feel the same way lol. i WILL die before I "live well into my 80s"

Same, I *will* ctb before 25. I also think that I'm an oppositional person by nature, so when someone tells me to do something, it actually makes me less likely to do it lol.

 

[Meteora]

Fortunately not. I have nothing, no therapist, no partner anymore, no close friends, no family, no children, not even a pet.

 

[recat]

Fucking absolutely. Nobody understands that life is not worth living for everybody. Nobody understands that sometimes, pain and total anhedonia makes like absolutely not worth fucking living. I am sick of listening to these people and their advice for now 15 years.

 

[hibikikyuxx]

You feel that way because you are forced to live. That's why euthanasia isn't legalized everywhere in the first place.

 

[mediocre]

yes.. I wake up everyday thinking why am I not dead yet. I am trapped in this body and in this life that never ends.. I just want to go to sleep forever!

 

[Exiled]

I feel like the force is SI for me + the actual fear of going through with it. But also, I could not leave my golden retriever. He is my absolute love and feels like my child. Makes it hard to truly follow through but sometimes I get close.

 

[RemainingDubious]

i personally wouldn't say "live" but i do feel like i'm forced to exist.

 

[strangeloner]

Yes... and I always feel like its those people that understand me the least that force me the most

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Im banking on microplastics cutting my lifespan down so atleast plastics have a silver lining for me lol

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes of course and I'm tired of suffering in this existence. The fact that there is an absence of guaranteed ways to peacefully die available for all means that existence is basically just imprisonment and slavery. It's really hellish to me how suicide is pretty much illegal, to me it'd be such a relief if I could access Nembutal as non-existence is all that's desirable to me. I find it evil how people are forced to suffer in this existence, it's evil to me how we cannot just die in peace without the fear of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse suffering.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes, I'm forced to live as the current available ctb methods are so risky and ineffective. I don't have a way to escape existence quicker by my own hand. I hope that I still get to die early

 

[grahf]

Fortunately not. I have nothing, no therapist, no partner anymore, no close friends, no family, no children, not even a pet.

Me too and I'm poor and fro third world country

 

[DeletedAccount0864]

Yes. I don't want to fuck things up and have an even worse situation or traumatize people. Our bodies don't even belong to us. It's sick. I just want to die in peace :(

 

[Unhumanly.]

life keep pulling me back only to remind myself that I have no place to keep holding, so, I try to let go, and life pull me again, and then, cycle repeated

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I think so. I told my psychiatrist that I didn't want to be a real adult or live past 25, and he said that most women live well into their 80s. This made me so mad. It actually strengthened my desire to die young to defy this.

People think saying these things is motivational, or that it assuages one's fears about dying, because many individuals want to invision a long life ahead of them. They want more time. What they fail to take into account is that for a lot of suicidal people, we want the exact opposite. After living through so much already at a younger age, I could not imagine reaching 80 especially while still carrying the problems that already exist.

 

[unknown23]

Why does suicide have such a stigma surrounding it just because one chooses to end their own life. I feel forced to stay alive because of the societal expectation because people have decided taking your own life is a decision no one can make. But if I needed a blood transfusion, I could refuse it on religious grounds and it would kill me. Why is either different both would make me not exist anymore.

 

[3/4Dead]

The other day I got into a debate with my mom and she said state given suicide for is self serving and insulting to the people who've cared for you. She says this as someone who is terminally ill and she said that how she feels this way considering that shes had two children (myself and my older sister) "decide when they should be able to die." I dont think id ever heard someone so blatantly disregard the pain that someone must endure when deciding that the only way out is suicide, regardless of whether or not the person is of sound mind when feeling so. To simplify it down to "you dont deserve to decide when you die" actually stunned me.

So yeah, I think so.

 

[Homo erectus]

Is it the same power guarding both ends of life, forcing people into life and not letting them die?