Discussion Does anyone else feel guilty for choosing to CTB

[starrypandabear]

I feel guilty and I want to prepare the people in my life in a way that is not super obvious. I also feel bad for my dog because I do love him but I don't know if he would even understand I'm gone, and my roommates if I choose to do it at home,I don't want them to find me either. I am working out the details but I do feel a little guilty, for all the effort put into my childhood and now being an adult and choosing to free myself. But does it matter because no matter what people will think it is a selfish decision? I want them to understand I am choosing peace, and to let me go.

 

[tonicer]

I feel so guilty i can't do it before the people i love are dead themselves. Those people are my old (~80) parents, especially my mother. I can't break her heart. She was always good to me even if i am a total disappointment of a son.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

Not one bit. Fuck life.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Guilt/ worry of what it would likely do to people is the main thing holding me back from doing it. I don't feel guilty about having suicidal thoughts though.

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

I feel guilty for similar reasons, especially when I think of leaving my dog behind. I also feel bad for my family too of course, particularly my cousins kids, my cousin, and my sister. But the guilt is not enough to convince me to stay long term.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Well, I'm too cowardly to do it but yeah, I definitely feel guilty about it. It'll destroy my parents and brothers. The kids I coach will be traumatized. My old friends are cool but they wouldn't be surprised after all my failure and mental illness.

 

[starrypandabear]

I feel guilty for similar reasons, especially when I think of leaving my dog behind. I also feel bad for my family too of course, particularly my cousins kids, my cousin, and my sister. But the guilt is not enough to convince me to stay long term.

Yes this is exactly how I feel. Guilt can only keep me around for so long.

 

[j888]

i feel so guilty and worried about the people i'm leaving behind. like you said,i wish there was a way to prepare people before hand. i feel bad thinking this way but sometimes i wish i had a terminal illness so everyone would know how long i have left and we could spend it accordingly. everyone would already start to grieve before you're even gone, so once you actually die its a little less of a shock. ah i wish i wasn't so worried about the people i'm leaving behind. why does dying have to be so complicated for us?

 

[nitrogenous]

I don't really feel guilty for anyone else, because when I needed them the most, no one gave a shit about me and how I feel. No one truly cares about me, so I'm starting to feel the same way. If any, they are the ones who makes me want to ctb even more..