Venting Does anyone else feel envious when they see a news story of a suicide?

[ceelobling]

It makes me so jealous. These people are so brave, meanwhile I can't even bring myself to do it. Every time I hear a story, it makes me frustrated that I'm still living. I wish I could join them. I was thinking this again when I heard about the death of Lamarr Wilson. This next one wasn't a recent story but in my old city a 5th grader committed suicide.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Yes

 

[Dante_]

I really think using a minors suicide as a point of comparison toward yourself is quite unfair to what they suffered through at that young age to decide to make that choice, a choice perhaps, that wouldn't have been taken if their environment and world at large were better.

 

[NoHorizon]

I always feel a mixture of empathy and sadness for the person, and jealousy for myself. A few people have killed themselves at the train station by my home and it always makes me go really funny with confused emotions.

 

[kitkat9234]

All the time. Wishing it was me instead. And how were they sucessful and not me

 

[Alpacachino]

Actually, I always feel sympathy towards them because I think of the life that led them Towards that decision.That being said, I understand what you're saying.The task of accomplishing a successful attempt is definitely something one can be jealous of.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel so much envy, I only envy those who no longer suffer in this torturous, painful and deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, all I want is to be permanently unconscious free from this existence so dreadful and deeply undesirable that just causes all this pain and suffering.

I'll just always prefer the peace of eternal dreamless sleep over being tortured by this existence and every second is torture to be conscious, for me non-existence would be the solution, there is no suffering in non-existence and non-existence solves everything for me yet there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence that was completely unnecessary that just leads to decay and death anyway, to me only those who never suffer ever again are fortunate, existence to me is just an abomination that only ever tortures existing beings and causes all this dreadful pain and suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[Siamese Believe]

Not anymore, I know I'll join them soon enough.

 

[jojobanana]

I was just about to post something like this. I feel jealous and curious. I wish I could find out step by step how they did it.

 

[Deepdense]

If they're at the point of death, they're usually just beyond my point of caring.

 

[Samira_Hura]

But I think about it, but I think about it not with envy. I can't know what they went through and what happened. But inside I tell myself that they made it, they succeeded, they won't have to go through that process again, they won't have to live through the process of death that scares me.

 

[metfan647]

Not envy, more admiration at the courage. If I'm in a particularly bad place I might feel self-loathe due to my own inability to take decisive steps.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I feel a mixture really. Partly an admiration that they were brave enough to do it. A hope they didn't suffer. A relief for them that their struggles are now over. Plus, a sadness and anger towards a world that likely pushed them to do it.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes I envy that someone was able to do it and escape this hell and that I haven't been able to escape yet
Those Dead are no longer suffering and can't suffer unbearable pain . But I and all those alive surely can suffer unbearable pain