Discussion Does anybody think they have a "petty" reason to CTB?

[NotSalmon]

Do you ever think that your CTB reasons aren't "good" enough and that you think many other people seem to suffer more than you do?
I don't suffer from many illnesses or anything that guarantees my life is fucked, I'm simply just dissatisfied with life and myself and overwhelmed by everything, especially life itself and the real world. I believe I could have a bright future ahead of me but that just doesn't matter some days because I will lay there living in the past, thinking about how life was so much better 2-3 years ago, that I was a piece of shit for thinking otherwise back then. I throw so many great things and opportunities away just because I for whatever reason don't want them anymore and if I don't do so then the universe does it for me. I don't understand why I can't simply let myself enjoy life, but instead I hyperfixate on death every other day or week and "CTB" is always on the backburner of my mind no matter what and I oftentimes just get curious to see what might happen if I do.

 

[waterbed]

Yes, all the time. There's people who've been abused, bullied, thrown on the street etc. but I just don't like living. It's so exhausting and it's generally just too much to handle.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Nah, my reasons for wanting an earlier death is valid and I believe that anybody would want the same if they stepped in my shoes

 

[KillingPain267]

Yes, over a divorce. I haven't gotten over it 12+ months. I feel ridiculous wanting to kill myself over it, but I'm sad every day and have no goals in life anymore, and I most definitely don't want to wage slave for half a century more for no reason.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I suspect there may be many people who wouldn't think my reasoning is enough to want out. I don't care though. I don't need their approval.

There are going to be countless people who have it far worse than me. If I could give them my life and my opportunities- so long as I was released, I'd do it. We can't though. I feel pity for them of course but, I don't feel guilty as such. It isn't my fault I'm alive.

I probably should do more than I do to relieve the suffering of others. eg. I will buy cheap goods likely made in unpleasant and unfair working conditions. I expect most of us do in fact. But- I'm exploited too. We're all part of this shitty exploitative system. To some extent, I'd be doing the environment and third world countries a favour by CTB.

Seriously- practically speaking, what difference will it make to someone living destitute whether I'm alive or not? If we truly cared about the impact our lives have on others- there are in fact things we could practically do to lessen that impact. Living more charitable, less exploitative lives could actually make a real, practical difference to them. Otherwise, whether we are alive or dead likely makes no difference at all to them.

 

[kuniwan]

I'm in the same boat as you. In an objective sense, I recognize my life is wonderful. However, I still feel so unhappy, like everything I do feels like a drag.

I find it disheartening when I try to do things that everyone says leads to a good life (ex. Go to college, find a relationship, get a job etc etc.) but get disappointed with the "positive" outcome over and over again. It makes me feel like I cannot handle when the future brings me actual problems if I already feel this way now.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

My reason for CTB is that I'm almost 31 years old and have yet to ever even go on a single date or have any relationship experience whatsoever and since I'm biologically programmed to want to have that with a woman over anything else it means I have to die because I know that me being with a woman is just going to cause them harm because they'll have known me. Some people think this is a stupid reason to CTB and I'll admit that I am so evil I actually deserve to have my suffering prolonged and to also probably be imprisoned and tortured and beaten just for even thinking of causing so much damage. To that I say I know I deserve to keep suffering but I actually am so selfish I'd rather just die and be free otherwise if I'm kept alive I might still have potential to keep causing Havoc to the world while also wasting resources for my survival.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

I have had many petty reasons. In my opinion, if your mental status is such that petty triggers make you want to end your life...then are they really petty? Nose bleeds are NBD for most people but a huge problem if you have hemophilia. Don't judge.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

Yes, over a divorce. I haven't gotten over it 12+ months. I feel ridiculous wanting to kill myself over it, but I'm sad every day and have no goals in life anymore, and I most definitely don't want to wage slave for half a century more for no reason.

That's a very short space of time. You are understandably depressed, it is a very difficult thing to go through. But yeah, that's not enough time to move on from something like that.

 

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

Yes, over a divorce. I haven't gotten over it 12+ months. I feel ridiculous wanting to kill myself over it, but I'm sad every day and have no goals in life anymore, and I most definitely don't want to wage slave for half a century more for no reason.

Yeah, people say "move on", but it's nor as simple. How long were u married for?

 

[Epilogue]

I'm just done with this world. It's the same shit day in day out. I can't stand this shit anymore. I got a list of stuff I wanna do but after that I'm done.

My reason is I'm bored and nothing makes me want live anymore. Some may call it petty. I say it's my life, my reason, my choice.

 

[KillingPain267]

Yeah, people say "move on", but it's nor as simple. How long were u married for?

8 years

 

[FinalVoid25]

I can't even tell you one specific reason, it's my entire existence as a whole. I am wrong. I don't belong in this world.

 

[brain-fog]

I have bad elements going on in my life, yet those are not the ultimate reason nor the reason I would say, if I could only choose one.

Yes, all the time. There's people who've been abused, bullied, thrown on the street etc. but I just don't like living. It's so exhausting and it's generally just too much to handle.

I feel the same about it.

Ultimately I don't think it really matters. If there is something bad, that you don't want to endure, then that is legitimate in it's own way. Of course you shouldn't CTB for meaningless conveniences or easily fixable problems, but that's for each to decide on their own.