does anybody know how to combat/fix this??

[Wolff603]

Got MDD around May, I feel like ive recovered and am even fine from time to time, but its as if im a new person in a way with just how everything is dealt with and how I think, its like im in a perpetual state of a mild mental illness that still interferes with how i interact with ppl sometimes and its genuinely eating away at me. Almost everyday everything goes numb and i feel horrendous and everything feels horrendous and i start self sabotaging and hating on myself for no reason.

Its like a neverending loop and it js keeps getting worse, Im scared it spirals into relapse or even worse trying to ctb again


anyboyd have ANY way to fix this its like a post recovery thing or idek

 

[IWillSurvive]

I think I am in a similar stage... I do interpret it as "not having fully recovered" though. I like to believe that I personally need more time on my own to get more comfortable with my being again. This is my personal situation though, you may need something else to get better.

Regardless, I hope you find it, or if there is nothing specific to tackle I hope you get better with time.

Also, I personally dont expect to ever "fully heal", I dont think that is a possibility, at least for me. I prefer to try and slowly get a bit better, a step at a time. Did you get any recent "wins"? Anything that the you from three months ago wouldnt had experienced or done?