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steppingoff

steppingoff

Experienced
Jan 18, 2024
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There are times when I wake up violently in the middle of the night, gasping for breath before I calm down. I am told it's sleep Apnea, where you stop breathing and you wake up because of it.

What happens is that I get this fierce dream that usually feels like I am under attack in some way. I am told my arms sometimes become stiff, and my hands bend at the wrist. I will wake up feeling I had been attacked.

My guess my body was trying to revive me before I died in my sleep.

But I really think it simulates death by hanging. I am sure I will pass out quickly, but my subconscious mind will continue. My body will try to "wake me up" but will fail. When I see Gore hangings, the body often goes through convulstions. That's where I feel will have those dreams. And the dreams won't calm down until I am dead.

In some ways, I fear those dreams more then the rope that will squeeze the life out of me.
 
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sklvlp999

sklvlp999

FML
Jan 23, 2024
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I've had this happen to me in multiple ocasions.
Wakening up in the middle of the night feeling like I'm a second away from not having any air left.
I wonder if there is a real chance of passing out
 
steppingoff

steppingoff

Experienced
Jan 18, 2024
212
Some people who've had NDE's claim to see a bright light that brings with it a feeling of warmth, peace and bliss. How you choose to interpret that is up to you but for me personally, I think it's just chemicals firing off in the brain and that was just there interpretation of it. It does seems like once the brain has exhausted it's si (the convulsions) and realizes that it's going to die it tries to make its final moments as peaceful as possible. I don't think it's like a dream at all, I think it's only comparable in the sense that you lose all concept of time.

This is all just speculation though, I think it'd help to read up on what happens to our bodies antemortem. Who knows, they could be horribly wrong and maybe it's just lights out and these final convulsions you see are just muscle spasms.

I don't put much faith in some cosmic explaining to things - its probably as you say, chemicals firing off its final salvo. But the way the person may be interpreting it as they die is interesting. And that is something you can't know, unless you experience death yourself, which it difficult to report back

Once you are dead, in my opinion you have more in common with compost than living humans.
I've had this happen to me in multiple ocasions.
Wakening up in the middle of the night feeling like I'm a second away from not having any air left.
I wonder if there is a real chance of passing out
Most people, as I understand, who just die in their sleep, die from Sleep Apnea. So if you have that experience, it may be just that
 
Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,326
Realistically? No, not with my method. Can't dream if your brain isn't working.

That said, I imagine my last moments of consciousness will be in a daze and I'll be daydreaming until the very end.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,087
A lot of people that report near death experience be it suicide or accidental deaths claim a sense of peace and calmness. Even people in hospis care that are dying, this are the things they say in their last minutes. There are reports of failed suicide attempts that claim to not have seen any thing except pure darkness but have felt that same calming peacefulness. You can interpret it as whatever gives you a peace of mind, be it chemical release in the brain or an afterlife, but it could maybe give some insight. Now there really is no way of knowing what the actually dead people experienced but instead of worrying the experiences change for when you actually die I will just choose to believe it's all the same thing.
 
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pan con queso

Member
Jan 17, 2024
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i had never had thought about this and for some reason it scared the shit out of me
 
cosmic_traveler

cosmic_traveler

Eternal Spirit Experiencing a Human Moment
Dec 23, 2023
311
I've attempted to OD on cocaine twice and failed 2 strangulating techniques. The last thing I remembered before lights went out was always, "ah relief". Like a really satisfying exhale.

I've also had several experiences with DMT to which I believe is exactly as NDE survivors report which only strengthens my resolve to return this spirit.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
13,179
I am worried I will dream. I'm bound to feel anxious and I'm always getting anxiety dreams anyway. I just hope it doesn't last long and I won't wake up to remember them.
 
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mortuarymary

mortuarymary

Enlightened
Jan 17, 2024
1,363
Not sure. I think N will just be fast.
 
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beaten96

beaten96

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Jan 26, 2024
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Nope.. I think I'll just be dead.. probably pass out from pain and whatever method I choose.. pain in severe degrees makes you pass out Usually. Which is how I go to sleep most of the time anyways.. so not much change there.. especially here lately.. not sleeping well, anxiety ridden. Not so much about suicide. I just want it to be over. I don't want people trying to save me once it's done. I don't care anymore. I keep hoping I'll die in my sleep. I think there is always that one last tiny sliver of fake hope right before. Your body is trying to stay alive no matter what. So your mind might play tricks on you. That's happened to me a lot, especially the past 7-8 years. You get that one little sliver of hope thinking life might magically get better. in any way.. but it never does.. usually gets worse.. and more ridiculous and painful.. I've decided if this next attempt doesn't pan out.. they have to let me out some time.. and then I'm jumping in front of a train or jumping off a bridge.. I'm just going to keep amping up my attempts until it's done.. they'l try and save though. They always do.. not sure why.. seems futile to me.. they save and then make your life a living hell.. they're so redundant..
 
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