Do you seriously care about your family being upset after your suicide?

[Jessica5]

Honestly, I don't care in the least. I care about almost nothing that happens on earth after I die.

My family is just going to have to suck it up and deal with my death.

 

[mathieu]

I almost care.

 

[LifeOver]

No, my life belongs to me and not my family members. It does not matter how they feel about my choice to take it.

 

[Fragile]

yes, the damage that my death will cause is the only think that keeps me from ending my life.

it feels like being a hostage in this world, can't ctb because my family and can't stay alive because of my illnesses and pain, this is really fucking me up lately.

but in the end i know what will happen, I'll do it because there is no amount of love that can cure me, i won't live to see my body decay any more.

 

[Pistolero114]

In all actuality I do. Well; at least for one of my sisters and two of my daughters. And granddaughters. I would never ever hurt them intentionally. However; my need for peace in this instance overrides the impulse to live for someone else.

 

[Etherealdignity333]

They fucked me over more than anyone. Tough titties.

 

[k75]

I care very much. It's a big factor in my hesitation. My family and friends did nothing to hurt me. They don't deserve what I'm about to do to them.

 

[TimeToDie]

I only have one living family member. And I hope he burns in hell while Satan sodomizes him with his huge demon cock!

 

[HGL91]

I feel bad for my mom, but...I know once I'm dead, I won't know anything.

 

[Fadinglife]

No

 

[vulturecyclop]

I care a lot, it will destroy them...but if I do they won't have to financially support an useless ugly leech like me anymore.

 

[deltahead]

it's difficult. i know that objectively this will devastate and shock them, but the suffering i know i'll generate just doesn't seem terribly special or genuine. it's like phoned in. obligatory. i say this because there's no way any of my family members or parents have developed a genuine bond with me. any kind of special connection, anything that would give even an illusion of meaning to their grief. in this house it's like living with two neurotic, socially awkward middle-aged roomates. i barely talk to them. all who know me have an idea of me that's filtered and colored through them, an empty shell they can project whatever they want onto. that's what they're really grieving for. it's all subtly altered to make me, my death, even their supposed "guilt" over it as agreeable to them as possible. they are strangers, plain and simple. they will never know who i really was or what i really did, and they won't care because their version of the events is a lot better.

it feels like their brains are forcing them to be sad and freak out about this. the primate oxytocin bond they had with me was violated so now their brains are all scrambled. it's like getting off a drug. as far as i'm concerned, marriage and child-rearing ruined my mom's life and just deepened the hole my dad's always been in. it was an irresponsible mistake they made that i fixed myself. maybe now that the band-aid's ripped off, they'll go and search for the mental and financial stability they should have had 20 years ago? or they could just fall apart and die. that's always an option. i scare myself when i say this, but that idea makes me feel nothing.

 

[yami9292]

I have one family member that affects me, my brother who I care about a lot and when I think about him reacting to my death and how much I know he will miss me. That really affects how I see ctb for myself then again I'm selfish so I get over it and realize I need to do it and he will be fine. But my mother passed away this year and now I will and that's gonna be tough I know for my whole family.

 

[riverstyx]

I care about my mother. The rest of the family? Not so much. My death would be devastating for my mother though, so that's my main motivation for staying alive for as long as I can.

 

[AlePizarnik]

I don't care, it should be my choice. We're not their hostage. Or at least we shouldn't.
In any case, if they didn't care about me while I am alive, why should they care after I die

 

[sunny.sativa]

Absolutely. I think it's been what's stopped me from ending it in the past. The last thoughts of,"my little brother. My biggest fan and only friend. What will he do"

 

[komm susser todd]

Only a close family member and thats about it. Ive been saying im to lazy to off myself but really maybe i just want to just hang out for a little while longer before i actually do it.

3 more days then lights out

 

[FF777]

I used to care a lot, but my suffering kind of sucks, and there is no way I can live the rest of my life with my conditions I have, so in the end they will have to deal with my death one way or an other.. I wish I didn't have to do this to them, but at the same time I can't live solely for other people..

Also, my sister will probably miss me the most, but I just think, if my sister killed her self, it would suck a lot but I actually wouldn't be all that devastated by it for super long...it would just be more weird than any thing I think.....so maybe she won't be as afflicted by my death as I am assuming she will be..

 

[JohnUK]

No I don't really care to be honest.

 

[peacetoall]

I care quite a lot. My brother took his life and I saw first hand how it destroyed my parents, especially my Mother. My parents and family have been nothing but good to me. Even though I want to leave this world 70% of the time, I know that I have to wait until my parents pass.

 

[Shamana]

Yes, I care very much,

 

[glk]

Not at all. They've made a mistake when they decided not to use a condom.

 

[Slate128]

Do they seriously care about me being upset before?

 

[Rugnificent]

I guess I can at least take solace in that no one will miss me at least. Way less guilt on my end

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I used to. Now just care for my daughter. It's absurd, life is nonsense.

 

[Beautifulletdown]

I use to care about my family but don't really give a shit about them anymore. They are a majority of the reason I'm so fucked in the head. I'm more worried about my cats. It sounds terrible but it's the truth.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

Honestly, I don't care in the least. I care about almost nothing that happens on earth after I die.

My family is just going to have to suck it up and deal with my death.

No I don't.

 

[laiduponit]

Only for certain members of my family, I know it'll be a heavy toll on them that is why I'm trying to get out of this pit and survive just for them. I've gone past a point where I must eagerly die and just accepted that I will eventually die by suicide, when however is up to me. I try to kid myself saying I don't care about my family if I die but in reality I know I do.

 

[RedPanda]

Na, i feel nothing, don't really care.

 

[Darkhaven]

Nope, nothing.
They have to deal with it. The life is mine.
Now with that being said i will totally avoid doing it while my grandparents are alive.