Do you self-harm?

[Nem]

Smashed my head a few times. Broke glasses over my head, head butted walls freaking hard. This all started after taking dangerous meds and advice from my Dr. Looking forward to the end hopefully this week, son of a bitch this sucks but it is what it god damn is

 

[Readytoendit]

The closest I got to self harm was purposefully eating badly to make my self sick. I only did that once though.

 

[-Link-]

I've considered it on occasion, but never done it. When it comes to self-destruction, I figure I'm in it to win it (keeping odds of survival as low as possible).

Why do you self harm and can't you stop ? Curious ?

I couldn't speak for anyone else on this, but when I've gotten to a point where I'm actively considering self-harm, it has stemmed from a desire to stop the mental and emotional pain. I was seeing physical pain as a release from mental and emotional distress.

Why not stop? Well, if your headache is bad enough, then you're going to keep taking Advil until it goes away or at least lessens.

 

[Arak]

I´m already hurting enough, no reason to add to that ...

 

[J.D.]

I don't do it that often.

But when i do do it.............i cut ALOT.

 

[Fucking loving it]

I've done it since 12. I've been to focused on ctb lately.

 

[LifeSick]

does smoking cigarettes even though I don't like the effects and hate the taste count?

 

[Cee]

Why do you self harm and can't you stop ? Curious ?

I self harm for the typical reasons, relief from emotional pain kind of thing. It makes me feel comfortable and normal, reminds me of my humanity i guess. I dont think i could stop, ive tried to but it never lasts very long. cutting seems like the only thing that gives my mind a break.

 

[Clover_]

Yeah, I have a long history of self harm. Sometimes the line between sh and suicide has been blurry. I cut, I purge, I burn, I beat myself up physically and mentally in a number of ways.

 

[Anon1337]

Yes. It feels nice to see the blood running down your arm.

 

[Duqu]

I used to, frequently. I stopped about 5 years ago (with occasional slip ups but not many). So for about 13 years overall. I have a LOT of scars. But they're white now (and I'm Caucasian and quite pale)

 

[bunny]

yes. its intensity and methods varied throughout the years, but i still do it as of now.

 

[Dog Food]

I've been self harming since relatively young. I started when I was 8 because I saw a friend show off a cut with pride. Since I was 12, the longest I've been clean has been 6 weeks. In my terrible emo phase, I carved a bands name into my leg and noe it's a scar.

 

[Kim]

Yes - cutting myself sometimes.

 

[Roph]

Other than smoking, which I haven't done in over a year, I don't.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Never did it, never had the urge.

 

[Pointlessabyss]

When I get to the points I'm so disconnected I literally do it to feel something and to make sure it's still real... often write words on my legs which I think I'm feeling at the time but don't seem to be reacting to them.

A lot of substance abuse on top of this aswell :)

 

[ChaosDergon]

I do engage in self harm, though not as much as I used to. I cut/burn though mostly stick with cutting; so I can function. It gives me a relief and a distraction but also reminds me that I am real, awake and alive. I just do not feel the need to do it as much anymore, for a combination of factors. Though last time was just a few weeks ago, it ends up being a need every month or so not an often thing but definenlty not a past thing either. though used to be a daily and even hourly thing. mostly on lower and upper part of arms, though have cut stomach and legs.

 

[xonnia]

I did REAL bad years ago.. the point i had to wear bandages around my upper legs for days to keep the blood from soaking through to my cloths.... then i just stopped when i blocked off the world.. i tried to rebuild myself.. recently i thought i was ok to open those doors back... and now as i sit here i feel the warm yet coolness of blood running down my leg.....

 

[Anon1337]

Spoiler: Trigger warning

 

[Angel2018]

Yeah, I'm cutting, smoking, drinking alcohol... It all started when I was 13. I deserve the pain and the ugly scars. Helps me to remind myself of what a useless fuck-up I am.

 

[Goldie]

I sometimes try to scratch myself but never manage to break the skin i'm too wimpy for that.

I'm too wimpy to actually hurt myself too.
I have never had the link between pain and a reduction in depression. I guess that is a good thing.

 

[Goldie]

Spoiler: Trigger warning

Ouch! Is that a fresh pic?

 

[Anon1337]

Ouch! Is that a fresh pic?

Yesterday.

 

[Hiraeth]

more than i'd like to admit
currently nuring a nasty infection from one of them that's making me sick.
for me its a way of having control over some emotional or physical pain i'm feeling.

 

[Spartacus]

When I was very young like 20 years ago

 

[Roph]

Rarely, very rarely.

 

[Throwaway563078]

Physically very rarely like once or twice a year when I let everything out. I don't cut but I scratch and bang my head on a wall or pinch myself. But I mentally /emotionally self harm myself on a daily basis. I basically am my abuser. But after physical self harm I do get a nice high unlike the mental harm

 

[TAW122]

I don't do that since it doesn't bring me any relief or anything, nor does it help me get closer to ctb'ing. I do however, intentionally put my mind into bad situations to feel like shit as a way to fight against the survival instinct. On some days I feel like I'm ready to ctb while on other days I don't. It's a torturous state of mind to be in, to oscillate between wanting to die and then not being able to or have things that hold me back.

 

[Xerxes]

I used to cut often with knives, broken glass, and such, but it brought too many questions from people wondering why I have scars all over my body. Nowadays I just punch myself, hit my head on walls, and beat the crap out of myself with whatever object is nearby, at least if anyone asks why I have a goose-head I can just say cycling accident.