Discussion Do you see a solution besides death?

[dogemn]

Do you feel there's any way things could get better, or does death feel like the only way out right now?

 

[Cosmophobic]

I don't feel like things are going to get better. I think of ctb like a safety net for when things inevitably get worse.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I feel like things can improve, they somehow are going ok tho can probably improve a bit... hope conditions for me don't regress, with some effort they probably won't.

 

[nool]

Not for me because I don't want to get better. I tried to better myself but I still felt empty inside, so I thought to myself; "If trying and not trying result in the same feeling, then it's better not to waste my energy in trying." Therefore, I've given up. There is no solution except to ctb. I've accepted my fate and accepted that this was always how it was meant to be for me.

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

I always feel horrible, I am always empty and depressed, being depressed is not necessarily just being sad, but rather I am always unmotivated and lacking of interest on anything, I just think ctb is the best for me, I chose it, it's my only end of suffering.

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

At this point... no
At this point... no
At this point... no

 

[Broken@25]

No, Im looking for helium right now lol, I dont have anything, anyone, or a life of any sort never did. I only have people that hate me, I am not human fuck this place I wish the worst for Earth.

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

No, Im looking for helium right now lol, I dont have anything, anyone, or a life of any sort never did. I only have people that hate me, I am not human fuck this place I wish the worst for Earth.

You could go to the dollar tree store, they sell helium balloons there, just buy 5 and then put them into a completely deflated big bag, like a new clean garbage bag, and then you can put your head in it, and make sure to tie it quickly with tape or a cable or cord before any air on the outside gets in, hope this helps if there is one nearby you.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

Death is the only solution for me.

 

[L9my]

You could go to the dollar tree store, they sell helium balloons there, just buy 5 and then put them into a completely deflated big bag, like a new clean garbage bag, and then you can put your head in it, and make sure to tie it quickly with tape or a cable or cord before any air on the outside gets in, hope this helps if there is one nearby you.

im pretty sure the helium balloons there have oxygen in it

 

[starboy2k]

If I seriously thought there was a better option than death itself……I wouldnt be on this website.

 

[WonderWhatsOutThere]

The only solution I can think of is to literally go back in time and change things. I'm weirdly kind of hoping that will happen once I CTB tomorrow. If there is a God, I hope he can feel how badly I want to change the past and will look past the harm I'm causing some people by leaving now. I know I can just act differently now, but it doesn't change my failures and I have the type of mind that won't let me forgive myself for even little things like being awkward in the 2nd grade. Then again, even if I get a second chance to make things right I'll still have this dysfunctional mind, so maybe it's best if there's nothing after.

 

[Dejected 55]

Too many variables and uncooperative people and people for whom the current chaos benefits to believe that the world could improve any time soon. So that's out the window.

My problem really only has two solutions. One is almost literally impossible. The other is me taking my own life.

 

[Forever Sleep]

The obvious 'solution' would be money. But then, as old age looms, it won't fix all the problems on the horizon. I'm not sure life will ever be anything more than something I tolerate at best. Seeing as even a pampered life requires some effort and, having everything easy can be boring, I think my problem is with life itself. I suppose ultimately, I want to be lazy and not incur the negative consequences. But yeah, death seems the most comprehensive solution.

 

[dead dav]

Ultimately no death is the ideal solution to my problems and deteriorating mobility

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Everyone eventually dies anyway.

 

[verminnnn]

my partner coming back to me. that's far too much pressure to put on one single person, though, so i've resigned myself to either dying or becoming vegetal and completely reliant on psychiatry

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

my Death very soon is the only solution.

1.yeah we all will die anyway . but If i could get the courage to kill this torture chamber, this bag of monstrous cells they call a human body im trapped in today then ... then i would avoid all my suffering from today until the day I would have died anyway. me killing myself today would avoid a lot of extreme suffering

2.nothing matters anyway except avoiding pain suffering and problems especially unending constant excruciating unbearable pain which any animal brain including a human brain is capable of such unimaginable suffering and extreme torture

3. 1 and 2 above are only 2 reasons why I would never want to live exist under any circumstances. they sum up on top of each other. I could write a 1000 page book further explaining these and many other reasons that also sit on top of each reason. life is bad .

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can solve and bring me peace from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, it's all that's positive for me, as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence.

I see human existence as the most dreadful, torturous abomination that just causes harm and suffering and I'll just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this futile existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured just to die in agony from old age, I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long, all I want is to be gone, existence just feels like a mistake to me, I wish I could erase this cruel existence so it's like I never suffered at all.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Right now, I'm not so sure if it's the only way out. I've been mostly sure a long time but right now I just don't know. How will I feel tomorrow? I don't know, but chances are I may be reassured again since weekends are usually my most depressing. A solution would be reuniting with my partner before the emptiness finally gets too much too handle.

 

[Alexandra_]

Death is my only way out, I know that for sure

 

[MyShadow]

You could go to the dollar tree store, they sell helium balloons there, just buy 5 and then put them into a completely deflated big bag, like a new clean garbage bag, and then you can put your head in it, and make sure to tie it quickly with tape or a cable or cord before any air on the outside gets in, hope this helps if there is one nearby you.

This method will not work. However you will sound hilarious when you try to talk afterward.

 

[Freedombus'25]

Nope and I'm not even interested in finding one either. This living shit while under so much is exhausting. I've tried enough im done.

Solutions be damned I wanna die. Get me off this hell ride called "life"

 

[MyShadow]

No, Im looking for helium right now lol, I dont have anything, anyone, or a life of any sort never did. I only have people that hate me, I am not human fuck this place I wish the worst for Earth.

Take it from someone who has researched this method. Helium is the least reliable of the inert gases, especially in the US. The helium available at party stores is 20% air, and this will trigger your survival instinct and you will most likely rip the mask or "exit bag" off your head.

Nitrogen and Argon are the gases that are more effective but the setup is DIY, the parts required are expensive and difficult to source and acquire and the set up takes a lot of time and expertise. Believe me, I've spent the past two weeks reading and researching every step and messaging those with more experience than me.

I'm sorry but if you're looking for a hasty exit, this method is not it.

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

im pretty sure the helium balloons there have oxygen in it

Sorry I was asleep that time, I they could be 99.9% pure. They literally have big helium tanks (they were tall tanks and NOT the balloon time tanks that have 20% air) they fill metal balloons with it, I've seen it.

This method will not work. However you will sound hilarious when you try to talk afterward.

Is it because it has air?

 

[slowdance]

My life did actually get substantially better in the last 6 months after getting on the right meds, moving out of the small town I hate, breaking up with my fiancee, and leaving my shitty job. I actually have the capacity for joy now. Food tastes good. I have the energy to get out of bed. I might even be making friends.

If I was able to get SN right now, I would not hesitate to CTB.

The thought of growing old is terrifying. I don't want more disabilities. I don't want to find out what happens in my country with the fascists in power. I just want out. I have lived long enough. I have experienced everything I want to experience and a million things on top of that. Let me out. I'm done.

 

[Irisse]

No, I don't. Everything had been tried. I'd have to become an amnesiac for it to maybe work, as most of my suicidality stems from awful memories and whenever I see something triggering I get paranoid. This world also works on principles that disgust me, and it seems only the worst people have it good. Even if I got out of the gunk, what about everyone else who failed? Because for every person that succeeded, there are thousands who wanted the same thing and failed. So no, I wish I was already dead and forgotten, everything else is just a distraction.