Do you plan to die this year? Yes or no

[INYGTRMTFMO]

Hopefully not. I'm tired of it all, but not enoughso to abandon my toddler daughter in this hellscape world (she has an abundance of loving family that would take care of her if I did exit the server, but losing a primary caregiver is major trauma -- I would know, I've been the child in that situation -- and I'm trying to actively traumatize her the least amount that I humanly can). Unless I snap completely, which is admittedly quite possible, probably not for a minimum of 15-16 years and quite possibly a heck of a lot longer, if my mental health and heart hold out that long (though between needing about four cups of coffee a day to function and a family history of heart disease, it may not be myself that takes me out at that age).

 

[autumn68]

probably late this year

 

[Hi_I_am_Dead_Weight]

Yes. I can feel myself getting tired again, I know there's a big wave coming and I am really just waiting for it to take me.

 

[no.one]

Yes, i'm trying to hold out til the end of the year, but it may be earlier.

 

[TAW122]

I do, but then again every year I say that, though ultimately, everything depends on time and circumstance because CTB is not something I want to make mistakes or not be 100% prepared and consider everything that I can (within my control). The last thing I want is ill-preparation or impulsive act that results in failure and ending up making my situation even more torturous for myself.

 

[lemonandcapers]

My original plan was to CTB on New Year's Eve 2025 (12/31/25), but I am going off and on between doing it.

 

[Linda]

I will ctb if my husband dies before me, and not otherwise. So you need to ask him whether he is going to die this year. (He is certainly not going to ctb, and no problems were found in his most recent annual checkup.)

 

[polm]

Yes one way or another

 

[dearlydeparted44]

Yes.

 

[Alexandra0]

Of course. And the sooner the better

 

[Indecisivesandollar]

yes.

 

[darksouls]

my health is very poor
I will be forced to ctb if my health worsens
I dont know when that will happen

 

[Saturn_]

I feel like this year is my last. There's no way out of any of this. The walls are closing in. I feel beyond empty. I tried to get better only for things to blow up in my face in the worst possible way.

 

[troubledM]

yes. its been almost 5 years since my last attempt. Nothing has gotten better. Only worse

 

[Emerita]

Yes just twiddling my thumbs while I wait for my method to come in the mail.

 

[Buffy]

No. Ever since I've started my meds, I haven't really thought about killing myself. I still feel like shit, but being less suicidal makes it a bit more bearable. I'll still do it if the opportunity comes, because I'm still the same and I'm sure my future as a bum hasn't changed.

 

[Thomas599]

For almost all of my life, I've participated in "meaningful work". I am currently near the end of my current contract and I have no new job on the horizon. If I do not have "meaningful work" by 12 October, I will take that as a sign that my time on this planet has come to an end and I will CTB shortly thereafter.

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

Hopefully

 

[Meowmeownextweek]

yes, if all goes well it'll be soon <3

 

[karakoltriste]

i dont think so... unless something horrible happens