Do you have a mental health condition which, if it were cured, would end your suicidal ideation (eg, depression, anxiety, OCD, bipolar, PTSD, etc)?

[Xi-Xi]

I got very, very unlucky with the amount of disorders I have, and I do not care to list them all, but any of them could contribute. But also, none of them could contribute. I don't know. I'll probably never know.

 

[tamamori]

i also have a number of disorders, and while maybe i'd have to be rid of all of them to not feel suicidal anymore, i definitely feel like if i had to name the worst one it's definitely the bpd. it's genuinely just like... the worst thing ever, and it's effectively untreatable to boot. i'd do quite literally anything to get rid of it

 

[Xi-Xi]

i also have a number of disorders, and while maybe i'd have to be rid of all of them to not feel suicidal anymore, i definitely feel like if i had to name the worst one it's definitely the bpd. it's genuinely just like... the worst thing ever, and it's effectively untreatable to boot. i'd do quite literally anything to get rid of it

I would say it's the same for me, it's probably the biggest factor, but weirdly, I don't really feel the effects of my BPD anymore, just kinda numb to it

 

[tamamori]

I would say it's the same for me, it's probably the biggest factor, but weirdly, I don't really feel the effects of my BPD anymore, just kinda numb to it

i do feel like i get more "used" to it as time passes and i feel number, but i know it's more just me pushing it all inside rather than genuinely not feeling it. in the end it still makes me miserable.

 

[merlinscries]

I think the main cause of my suicidal thoughts is the autism that makes me isolate and struggle to function as a person. I wish it could be magically cured

Friend you are not alone

 

[Unlucky777]

I think so, 99.99% sure it would. Especially the emotional dysregulation that comes with CPTSD

 

[Dot]

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[OnMyLast Legs]

I've been diagnosed bipolar I, I believe. With psychotic features. That said, I feel like my experiences and habits produced it. 36yo with nothing. It seems that theoretically I could live a life if I were suddenly calm and happy and with a mind organized enough to take care of myself. If I were tough enough to grind through work or delay gratification even longer to go back to college. But I don't know how I could overcome my memory, my shame, my remorse.

 

[Forveleth]

A while ago, I might have said yes but now my disorders have nothing to do with me not wanting to live. I have had enough of life and even if circumstances changed and I could be a "happy" person, I would still want to die.

 

[braintorture]

i always thought i was the problem so no, this world is fucked from the core just like everything around me

 

[venerated-vader]

The idea is a nice one, but I am bipolar. To take away my mental illness is to take away the vast majority of what makes me who I am. To wake up stable and healthy... that's impossible. That person wouldn't be the 'me' writing this, because it is in the physical makeup of my brain. So I mean yeah, I guess it'd solve my ideation... because I would be 'dead', anyway.

Maybe that's a bit fatalistic though lol.

 

[nightlighter]

OCD to be honest, I have death anxiety towards others (haha how ironic) and the thought of my parents most likely passing before me (if i dont CTB obviously) is something that causes me to want to ctb so I dont have to experience that grief even though that means they would experience it instead. I also have other themes and one I have had many frame me for things that relate to it which caused me to spiral and think I truly am a bad person. the way to escape the constant distress I have from these thoughts is to ctb, I dont know if I will be put on meds or anything which is why I truly just lose hope. If my OCD was maintained I think I would become someone completely different and enjoy my life much more but I dont see that happening anytime soon.

 

[socksnsandles]

no

 

[vitbar]

Yes I think so. Medication has got rid of a lot of my MH issues and the ideation is far less as a result.

Still my life is a mess and that makes me sad in itself at times. I wish I had sought treatment when I was younger. That's all spilled milk now, but I do wonder where I'd be if I had, or if I hadn't ever had mental health conditions.

Edit: I haven't BPD as far as I know.

 

[Pluto]

 

[pony No.2]

How many people here have a mental health condition which is the main cause of your suicidal thoughts? If you were able to cure or greatly improve your psychiatric disorder (with pharmaceutical drugs or supplements, for example), do you think your suicidal ideation would then mostly end?

I have PTSD, ADHD and MDD. And probably autism. If I was magically cured of these conditions, I don't think I'd stop being suicidal. Things would be easier, but I'd still have to deal with the expectations of society and life will get harder and harder as time goes by. So no, I wouldn't stop being suicidal, I was suicidal before I was diagnosed with anything.

 

[huntrix#1fan]

Maybe? I have bipolar disorder. However, sometimes I wonder if I use it as a scapegoat for my problems. Maybe the true problem is me and I'd be just as depressed without it.

 

[ef99]

How many people here have a mental health condition which is the main cause of your suicidal thoughts? If you were able to cure or greatly improve your psychiatric disorder (with pharmaceutical drugs or supplements, for example), do you think your suicidal ideation would then mostly end?

I have schizophrenia and honestly I don't think it would. I don't really know what my life would look like without it but I imagine I'd be just as much of a loser as I am now. I just hope I gain some hope soon and something good happens to me for once

Maybe? I have bipolar disorder. However, sometimes I wonder if I use it as a scapegoat for my problems. Maybe the true problem is me and I'd be just as depressed without it.

god I feel the exact same way

 

[indianachrome]

Chronic pain post surgery. Back and ass.