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hopemeetshopeless

hopemeetshopeless

Member
Sep 20, 2024
51
No. None. Not a single one. Not even remotely. No one responds. Everyone ghosts me, ignores me and leaves me on read. No one is willing to make or follow through with any plan with me. No one reaches out. No one texts. No one calls. Ever. At all. For all anyone who ever knew me knows, I could already be dead.
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
566
A few online friends, but I haven't really had a proper chat with any of them in weeks.
I don't have any physical friends, haven't had any for over a decade.
 
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Leonard_Bangley39

Too pathetic to even catch the bus
Nov 6, 2025
111
i have roommates, coworkers, group chats on discord, but nobody i would really call a genuine friend. everyone just comes and goes
 
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AuraByte

AuraByte

If I'm lost, please don't find me.
Jun 24, 2025
104
Any friends I had stopped caring when I got too sick - physically and mentally - to hang out with them.

Pretty much a loner these days.
 
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no-hope-no-future

no-hope-no-future

Member
Apr 21, 2025
58
I am my own best friend.
 
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cygnus1

Member
Nov 9, 2025
10
i will never make a friend who knows about ingo swann and has their own experiences to share, i dont know how my life was meant to end like this.
 
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venerated-vader

venerated-vader

ooOOooOOooOOoo
Mar 11, 2025
192
The only online friend I have would be 1000000% devastated if I never came back online with zero explanation. To be left not knowing what happened would be deeeeeply painful. I try to trust that they won't do something (because wanting to die is a fun community trait i guess idk) so I try to keep myself from making a rash decision. I suppose that isn't too hard, despite how terrible I feel.

I don't really like to think about it.
 
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beyond.space

beyond.space

"an elegant suicide is the ultimate work of art"
Oct 30, 2025
47
i have friends, 2 or 3 close and a very close one that is not actively suicidal but has had some ctb attempts and actually understands what im going through. that being said, i have a very pessimistic point of view on everything. i started to feel absolutely alienated from them and all of humanity. i fell into a type of pessimistic extremism, so much so that ive basically isolated myself from everyone, unwillingly but naturally.
 
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drella

drella

you were never there you wont ever be
Apr 26, 2023
22
yeah but hes a continent away and rly has no way of knowing, doesnt help that im hopelessly in love with him either so i never open up to him abt these things
i cant afford to hurt him so its better if he thinks i just started ignoring him one day and hopefully he can forget my existence with hate
 
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notreallybored

Specialist
Nov 26, 2024
341
ב''ה, there will be nobody to tell except debt collectors and hands in the pocket.
 
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