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mantarays

New Member
May 3, 2026
1
I've been self harming for maybe 8 years at this point. I have a little box in my closet that I keep my razor and all the things I need to clean up the blood. I have never found a way that can calm me when I'm upset like being in pain does so I don't see myself stopping cutting myself anytime soon. I wear long sleeves year-round to cover my arms. It gets comments from my coworkers in the summer but I always tell them that I just like the way long sleeves look on me. I have no idea if they believe that or not. Even if they know the real reason I wear long sleeves I doubt they care.
 
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Dinozauria

Dinozauria

Long sought rest
Feb 8, 2026
136
I used to self harm by cutting myself but I ended up getting scared of infections which stopped me. Nowadays, I try to self harm by starving myself, but I have really bad self control. Also, this one is a lil weird, but I try to trigger myself to think about suicide every day. I don't know if it counts as self harm. I heard it does, but it makes me feel good
 
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Zen0

Zen0

Member
Jan 4, 2024
21
I don't really self harm in the traditional sense. But there's no shortage of self inflicted pain for me. I don't really take good care of my physical health as i don't follow a good sleep schedule, i don't eat much (or sometimes not at all), burn myself in the shower, sink my nails into my skin. All mostly ways that don't immediately show to other people "that boy is hurting himself on purpose".
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,489
I have thought seriously of starting to self harm again. But as had been said it will bring unwanted attention if discovered. I think my suicidal nature is fine to fly under radar now, but if I were to start cutting that would likely be a problem. My thoughts.

Well yeah I've lost a bunch of weight again. I was manipulated into a Dr's office behind it I think, or maybe it was genuine concern. Idk. I'm trying to eat more often now. At least to maintain my present weight.

I also have the sleep issues. Not much can be done about any of that I guess.

They have me on gabapentin. I don't feel it's being that helpful, but I could still go up. I also don't know what to tell them when they as about it. I feel luke they just want to hear it's working.
 
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DashofPepper

Member
Aug 4, 2025
8
yeah ive been cutting myself for years atp, my thighs are covered in scars. idk i find its just a very addictive feeling because the mental relief it gives me is incredible, genuinely the best ive ever felt was when i was cutting myself.
 
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thelostautistic

Arcanist
Jul 31, 2025
470
I started when I was 16 and I'm nearly 25 now. I don't do it as much anymore because I don't feel the need to. That was until recently. I randomly relapsed last week which sucks but I'm 1 week self harm free so that's positive.
 
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raikko

raikko

Member
Dec 21, 2025
19
I started self harming the same time I got depression and suicidal thoughts. So I've been doing it since I was 14 during COVID era (im 20 now). At 14 my mindset towards life just snapped and my will to live just disappeared (I'll talk about my personal reasons to ctb in another post).Self harm may numb the mental anguish and replace it with physical pain. But anyway, im wondering if you guys also self harm while having suicide ideation since they kind of go hand in hand.
no, which is why i feel like a fraud
 
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chuckapalahniuk27

chuckapalahniuk27

Member
Apr 9, 2026
21
sometimes but its annoying to clean up after
 
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tooBadTooLate

tooBadTooLate

Student
Aug 16, 2025
100
Does starvation count? I have not eaten anything for about four or five days now after a breakdown.
 
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suimaxxer

suimaxxer

Member
Apr 17, 2026
12
yeah. i cut every couple days. the only thing i regret is cutting up my left arm too much, the skin there looks really weird now since it is mostly scars. it reminds me of wood
 
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Imausername

Imausername

Mentally Tortured
Feb 15, 2026
55
I cut words into my self. It feels less valid and more attention seeking but so what. I can write words I can't understand or say. I feel it's more real like though sh is my way to express my internal hidden mental pain others can't see so I give them something... Crazy sure they drove me there
 
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fairygirl184

fairygirl184

Member
Oct 2, 2024
24
i first cut in 2009-2010 at 12, immediately got dobbed into school by a friend, they then called my mum. she basically asked me if id never do it again and i said ok, just got better at hiding it after that. i don't cut often anymore, but hitting/head banging i resort to when overwhelmed. i also have issues with things like spending and binge eating which i think is due to (waiting list but undiagnosed) adhd. i wasnt a deep or bad cutter but still have visible scars, the worst from 2015
 
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KeepSmiling

KeepSmiling

New Member
May 2, 2026
3
i used to cut as a way to cope but now its just something i do when i feel like it.
its the same as smoking or drinking. either way its harmful, addictive and ur better off not doing it in the first place but in moderation its not that bad
 
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shaggy_dooo

shaggy_dooo

My cozy place
Jan 26, 2026
57
I used to self harm by cutting myself but I ended up getting scared of infections which stopped me. Nowadays, I try to self harm by starving myself, but I have really bad self control. Also, this one is a lil weird, but I try to trigger myself to think about suicide every day. I don't know if it counts as self harm. I heard it does, but it makes me feel good
I have alot of anxiety during the day which causes to eat alot sometimes i just grab anything on the kitchen and start munching despite my conditions ive always been a guy with fast metabolism i eat tons and dont get fat but thats what i do instead of self harm i eat or have to drink something sweet or beer 😅
 
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libbionline

libbionline

libbi
May 3, 2026
2
I used to. I would only cut myself on my legs so my parents would think it was just a scratch. I told my mom one time when I was in seventh grade and her reaction still haunts me. I've been clean for 13 months, but I am planning to ctb.
 
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TomIsNotMyName

TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
128
Not often but sometimes when things get really bad or when I feel strong negative emotions
 
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DeathKitty

DeathKitty

Miserable
Apr 11, 2024
32
Yeah. It started as a way to punish myself for not going through with an attempt. Now it's just a thing I do pretty much whenever I feel the pull. It's har though because people are starting to get concerned.
 

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