Do you guys self harm?

[Sparkly rainbow]

I started self harming the same time I got depression and suicidal thoughts. So I've been doing it since I was 14 during COVID era (im 20 now). At 14 my mindset towards life just snapped and my will to live just disappeared (I'll talk about my personal reasons to ctb in another post).Self harm may numb the mental anguish and replace it with physical pain. But anyway, im wondering if you guys also self harm while having suicide ideation since they kind of go hand in hand.

 

[yes7777777]

No, it'll attract unwanted attention and hyper focus making CTB very difficult

if i lived alone and have no relation with family/friends etc then probably i'd try it because im an adventurous person

 

[apearl]

In a pretty similar situation as u, I was kinda suicidal before covid but it hit me like a truck during covid. I'd been self harming since before that. I do it for the emotional regulation aspect, it takes away the dread. In academic literature usually that's the main reason listed why someone self harms.

I can see how self harm and suicide can go hand and hand tho, they both deal with a person dealing with severe amounts of anguish and emotional dysregulation. Being mentally ill will make u do anything lol

 

[Slark]

No, but I'm thinking about starting. There are days when anguish and emptiness overwhelm me and I feel like I want to explode, so I was wondering if self-harm could help.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

I have self harmed before by cutting into my arm, and it got me attention I wasn't looking for. Family was all up my ass for days after that, and the constant phone calls annoyed the piss out of me.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

Yeah, I used to sh myself, but i stopped cause I was anxious about people bringing it up. I still want to tho

 

[spellbound]

I used to cut myself a bunch but it would always get noticed, which I hated. Nowadays when I feel like cutting myself I just strangle myself with a scarf until I almost pass out. It's a different kind of buzz but it's a great replacement for me

 

[Yuri440]

Used to for a couple years, started quite rarely to last year where a few months I just kept doing it. At one point the entire front of my body was just covered in cuts. Stopped not long after. I was mostly doing it as a way to chill when I was overwhelmed, but one day it just stopped working and my brain just lost interest in it immediately. I'll sometimes look at blades and think about it, but I quickly realise that I feel just ugh about it, like I know it wouldn't work if I did it.

 

[Bitterly_Nostalgic]

I used to self harm quite a bit. The ways I did it were cutting, biting and punching myself. I was eventually able to work fully through the cutting and have not done that in many years. However for a while, the time I would have spent cutting was instead replaced with more biting and punching so I wasn't completely better.

Over time I've dealt with the punching and biting as well for the most part. But I've found self-harm to be such a hard habit to completely lose though, for me it will still occasionally come back during periods of intense emotional distress.

 

[Front Back]

I was 14 during COVID era (im 20 now).

God it's been 6 years... I haven't really tried this SH things but going to work felt like it.

 

[eatantz]

Yesssss love to cut my arms!! Haven't touched my thighs in a while tho

 

[PanaxMan]

I started self harming the same time I got depression and suicidal thoughts. So I've been doing it since I was 14 during COVID era (im 20 now). At 14 my mindset towards life just snapped and my will to live just disappeared (I'll talk about my personal reasons to ctb in another post).Self harm may numb the mental anguish and replace it with physical pain. But anyway, im wondering if you guys also self harm while having suicide ideation since they kind of go hand in hand.

Nope it's not worth the backlash if I was to to serious (in which right now I am)

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

used to pretty much daily. currently on a clean streak, not bc im particularly trying for it but just havent had the urge in a while

 

[buriedinmyhead]

Yeah, haven't done it much lately though. I don't cut, so there aren't as many recovery resources for me available.

 

[finalmission]

No, I dont see the point

 

[Merocero]

yes, i do. Its.. definitely making it harder to hide my issues but its not impossible, my mother found out once and threatened to check me for it but never actually did other than just guilt tripping me into promising ill never do it and saying how much it hurt her (she doesnt get to say that. she attempted suicide on my eyes when i was around 13 and her AND some part of our family blamed it on me later.) My crush when i told her would basically say the same stuff, that it makes her sad and that i cant do it, along with talking to me like im a toddler... I tried to stay clean when i had psychologist appts for a bit but it didnt work out, and funnily enough, now i do it more that usual after getting on 225mg venlafaxine which was supposed to activise me to do things.. its hard not to laugh at the fact that it only made me cut more lmao! activised? sure! just with the wrong thing! sorry this is a ramble and kinda vent-ish, i cant really uh talk about anything without rambling i guess,,

 

[not a fish]

I used to and honestly miss it
Stopped it because I would get looks from people for have a lot of cut and burn marks
And using the excuse "I'm a real bad cook" only works so many times

 

[auti]

I started self harming the same time I got depression and suicidal thoughts. So I've been doing it since I was 14 during COVID era (im 20 now). At 14 my mindset towards life just snapped and my will to live just disappeared (I'll talk about my personal reasons to ctb in another post).Self harm may numb the mental anguish and replace it with physical pain. But anyway, im wondering if you guys also self harm while having suicide ideation since they kind of go hand in hand.

I started self harming at age 13. I've been clean on and off over the years but recently broke a six month streak. Probably will do some more before I go.

 

[depressedmess]

Don't. its not worth it and if you live, you'll regret it

 

[tomame]

i end up in relationships that seem to be a sense of self harm when i observe them from the outside

 

[2mikki]

Yup, the annoying thing is that it makes people constantly doubt my mental state

 

[dead dav]

Yes I punch myself and hit my back with a belt also strangle myself sometimes so hard I end up with bloodshot eyes

 

[interna]

yes ive been cutting myself since 12

 

[echoINTHEMIRROR]

I used to but Ive been clean for a good minute and dont want to try and clean blood up right now. I tend to just bite the insides of my mouth until i bleed now.

 

[Zizouaax]

no

 

[Chocomel]

I am very very rarely do self harm. Because I can barely handle physical pain. While I do have suicidal ideation and often thinking about stabbing myself, I never actually do it because I know it will hurt more than it will heal me. If I want to hurt myself, I rather do it all-in, to the point I'm not breathing anymore. What I do instead is self-deprecating, it's almost like a verbal tic to me, because often times I'm not even concious of it.

 

[insectontrial]

I do, both in conventional and unconventional manners. I've self-harmed in some way or another from a very young age.

 

[tannhausers]

The idea of cutting myself or disfiguring my body in any way seems stupid to me.

My version of self-harm is probably working out.

 

[Anarcholoser]

My entire body is covered in scars from self harm. I even had to have one of my legs amputated from a particularly bad episode of self injury fueled by PTSD. I don't really regret any of it except for the amputation.

 

[Morte]

i self harm in other ways , like bad diet, substance abuse, more debts etc