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klantedklaw

klantedklaw

Member
Aug 8, 2025
59
I would hate being found dead, regardless of how you die all dead bodies look gross. When I CTB it will be deep in the forest, I hope to do it in a bog or in a tree well, I don't want my body found at all.

The last thing I want is for my parents and brother to be wailing over my corpse and holding my dead hang after I CTB - it sounds horrible to put people you love so much through that.
 
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pax420

Happy last birthday to me!!!
Jan 19, 2026
133
Hell I don't really care how I look to other people now, much less after I'm gone. If anybody dont like me look the other way.
I used to want to be buried face down so the whole world could kiss my ass, but I've grown up a little since then.
 
February_In_April

February_In_April

There a time to talk & a time to listen
Apr 5, 2026
41
Do you care how your body would looks?: no not really

Would you be upset if it was blue, torn apart, sickly looking?: no It really wouldn't bother me.

Do you want to look like you're sleeping, or like you've been mauled?: if I had to choose, I would probably go with sleeping.
 
whyidon'tknow

whyidon'tknow

Human
Jun 9, 2019
419
As long as EMS finds me, I dont really care, they are trained for that kind of thing
 
leoneliona

leoneliona

YEOWCH
Mar 31, 2026
86
Not really. I'm going to be long gone when they find me anyways. I'm using SN though, so it wouldn't be as gorey as a gunshot wound.
 
purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
223
I plan to kill myself by train (decap) and, among other things, people's concerns seem to lie heavily in that you sort of end up.. a mangled mess.

It's not for everyone I guess. For me, it's one of the more intriguing parts of the method.

Do you care how your body looks? Would you be upset if it was blue, torn apart, sickly looking? Do you want to look like you're sleeping, or like you've been mauled?
While I don't particularly agree with your rhetoric I live by the motto "Dead man can not worry nor suffer".
Whatever happens after I die, happens. I have no more control over that and I for sure would never limit myself just because it might cause others trauma in some way or another.

While I don't actively want others to see me in a mangled state, which is why I will go with either SN, CO or Nitrogen/Helium, I do not disagree with people who choose more brutal methods. It is a great and stern warning to society as a whole to finally provide a peaceful way out for everyone.

Removing peaceful methods does not stop suicides it just makes it more bloody and traumatizing for those that want to live.
Just as banning abortions can not stop abortions but make them unsafe and deadly for both mother and the unborn fetus.
Just as banning drugs will not stop drug sale but make them even more unsafe, laced and dangerous for everyone involved.

It might sound radical to say this, but I would not even mind more people choosing to CTB by driving in the opposite Lane.

Change always ever only came with blood... Which sucks so insanely much.
But I will no longer tolerate having to exist solely because some pedophilic billionares require me as a wage slave


Still. After having said all that: Try to not involve others in your death. It is yours and yours alone.