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username12345

Student
Aug 18, 2024
118
This has been going on for two years and now I don't have any family or friends while being trans and physically disabled and with PTSD and sleeping on the street and the bully/stalker just watching me waste away. I hadnt eaten in two days and had to spend money I didn't have cause I was so hungry. I really can't live like this literally both mentally and physically and really hope I just die soon one way or another.Even if I don't kill myself this is going to kill me due to being disabled and the lack of food and safety and everything like that. It also is cold at night even though it's warm during the day. The little bit of sleep I manage to get I wake up shivering and I don't have access to my coat.
 
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fleetingnight

fleetingnight

incapable of shutting up
May 2, 2024
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It's wrong to treat anyone that way, of course, but I really can't understand how people can be so cruel to someone who they can see is already going through so much. I'm so sorry you're in that situation 🫂
 
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opheliaoveragain

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Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
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sending you much love. people can be cruel as fuck. i'm sorry you're dealing with this too. is it possible to hit a church lost and found or similar for a coat? 🤍🤍
 
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Trav1989

Experienced
Jun 2, 2024
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Yeah, some people hate that which they fail to understand and they clearly don't understand me so I'd wager they'll be happy when I CTB and in all honesty that almost brings a smile to my face.

Let them have their laughs because we all know how difficult life is so if my demise brings them some measure of happiness all the better for it I say.

There will be more that will be saddened by my choice but like in all things they'll move on until they won't.

Eventually every one of us will die and so will those who come after, etc.

Nothing really matters in the grand scheme of things and even the grand scheme in and of itself is meaningless.
 
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leavingsoonx

Headed to the other side
Sep 22, 2024
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This has been going on for two years and now I don't have any family or friends while being trans and physically disabled and with PTSD and sleeping on the street and the bully/stalker just watching me waste away. I hadnt eaten in two days and had to spend money I didn't have cause I was so hungry. I really can't live like this literally both mentally and physically and really hope I just die soon one way or another.Even if I don't kill myself this is going to kill me due to being disabled and the lack of food and safety and everything like that. It also is cold at night even though it's warm during the day. The little bit of sleep I manage to get I wake up shivering and I don't have access to my coat.
It is wrong to be treated how you are. I get why you want to CTB. I think being alive makes you very strong when it doesn't seem the world has given you any love that every single human being needs and deserve. No one deserves to be bullied and I hope if you CTB, you do it because you want to be free and not because of the bullies. There will be bullies everywhere and they don't deserve to have you give their life for their evil ways.
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
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This has been going on for two years and now I don't have any family or friends while being trans and physically disabled and with PTSD and sleeping on the street and the bully/stalker just watching me waste away. I hadnt eaten in two days and had to spend money I didn't have cause I was so hungry. I really can't live like this literally both mentally and physically and really hope I just die soon one way or another.Even if I don't kill myself this is going to kill me due to being disabled and the lack of food and safety and everything like that. It also is cold at night even though it's warm during the day. The little bit of sleep I manage to get I wake up shivering and I don't have access to my coat.
No they want to feel powerful by harming you. If you die they stop feeling powerful. As fucked up as is they going to believe they care about you largely because of this.
 
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