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lifelessloser

lifelessloser

mentalcel doomergirl
Mar 27, 2026
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champex
Ive only wver seen people say its good to od on
Its one of the highest chances of oding
But oh my fucking god so painful
Ive known ppl who accidently took 2 and got rushed to the hospital, I popped 120 of them my last attempt and I cant even explain how it felt to die, first I got so di,my I could stand or lift my arm, then I lost my voice, then it hurt to breath, then I was dry heaving in between gasps of already not breathing, symptoms generally worsened until I layed down starfish and let my body absolve
Theres no words to put it but after all thr bad was the feeling of death though
I yearn for it back so badly

Anyway point is, I spent 6 days barfing wvery 10 or so minutes, and it was disgustingly painful
Do NOT try
 
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INYGTRMTFMO

INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
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I am so sorry you had to endure that. Thank you for the heads up.
 
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boyafraid

boyafraid

Is life over yet?
Oct 27, 2025
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Sorry you had to go through all of that. That sounds like an awful thing to experience ):
If you dont mind me asking, what did you od on?
 
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lifelessloser

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mentalcel doomergirl
Mar 27, 2026
10
Sorry you had to go through all of that. That sounds like an awful thing to experience ):
If you dont mind me asking, what did you od on?
Champex
 
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boyafraid

boyafraid

Is life over yet?
Oct 27, 2025
69
Sorry my silly ass didn't realize you put the name in your post lol

I've never heard of that drug until today. From what I hear the best to od on are benzos/opioids. I originally bought two blue m30s for my first attempt, but then backed out last minute. I was scared that somehow two wouldn't be enough, and I would survive and become a fent addict ):
 
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lifelessloser

mentalcel doomergirl
Mar 27, 2026
10
Sorry my silly ass didn't realize you put the name in your post lol

I've never heard of that drug until today. From what I hear the best to od on are benzos/opioids. I originally bought two blue m30s for my first attempt, but then backed out last minute. I was scared that somehow two wouldn't be enough, and I would survive and become a fent addict ):
Thatd be terrifying
Id have that same anxiety lol
Champex is like a quit smoking medication so it changes alot in the system, its really prone for heartattacks
 
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boyafraid

boyafraid

Is life over yet?
Oct 27, 2025
69
Thatd be terrifying
Id have that same anxiety lol
Champex is like a quit smoking medication so it changes alot in the system, its really prone for heartattacks
I bought them almost exactly a year ago but ended up just flushing them down the toilet when I backed down. It's scary how easy and cheap it is to buy fent if you live in the U.S. I literally got mine in a Walgreen's parking lot after talking to some homeless people lol. Ever since then, I've had my eye on more reliable methods like hanging.

What a painful experience that you went through. It kind of reminds of people who try to od on over the counter meds. Did you have any lasting health effects because of the od?
 
bruised_reed

bruised_reed

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Apr 1, 2026
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I bought them almost exactly a year ago but ended up just flushing them down the toilet when I backed down. It's scary how easy and cheap it is to buy fent if you live in the U.S. I literally got mine in a Walgreen's parking lot after talking to some homeless people lol. Ever since then, I've had my eye on more reliable methods like hanging.

What a painful experience that you went through. It kind of reminds of people who try to od on over the counter meds. Did you have any lasting health effects because of the od?
Could I ask you how much you paid?
 
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boyafraid

Is life over yet?
Oct 27, 2025
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Could I ask you how much you paid?
I bought them overpriced but I was desperate at the time. I got two blue m30s for 10$. Super overpriced because there are people who will sell you blues for 1$. Drug market changes overtime so I'm not sure how much they cost now. I tried buying them from 3 different homeless people, and the third one had some blues on them. It really is that easy to get in on the streets. I also live in Phoenix Arizona and drugs are a big problem out here.
 

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