Yep. My life has been a disaster and will only keep getting worse. It will never get better.
I don't even blame anyone in my life anymore. If I could say anything last, it'd be that this is no one's fault. It's just a tragic result of a series of unfortunate events and a little bit of poor decision making on my part.
In many ways, I feel like the world is doomed and so are we. I wish I could hang along in the background as an observer and see the fate of humanity, but I guess death is part of life.