
lifelover0037
none
- Feb 12, 2025
- 24
Recently, my delusions and paranoia have been very severe. In my worldview, family ties are nothing but a blood relationship that throws everyone into a gladiatorial arena. As long as no one dies, this kind of moral coercion passed down from generation to generation will never end. As for other emotional relationships, they are all based on interests. I don't believe in care, because comfort and sympathy are 100% condescending. Even if it's said to come from the heart, it's just to make oneself feel morally satisfied by saying some nice words. In the end, the world is full of malice, so much so that every time I wake up from abuse, I see passers-by lunging at me on the street. The whole world is my enemy, and I'm in great pain. So much so that I have to carry a knife with me every day for self-defense. If I don't hate everything with extreme hatred, I don't even know how to live. I was originally taking paliperidone and valproic acid, but the side effects were too great, so I had to stop taking them. I'm very conflicted about whether to resume medication. Taking drugs can indeed solve some problems, but I don't want to suffer from side effects again. What should I do