did it perhaps get easier after obtaining your method?

[louboutinsuicide]

i would imagine the feeling of carrying something in your pocket that could kill you in minutes an hour… would be very powerful. perhaps that made you continue a little longer?

 

[timf]

There is an ironic aspect of the suicide process in that as one begins to let go of things, once can feel that there is no need to proceed. There can be a freedom in letting go that becomes a reason to stay.

 

[ScaredCutter]

my options are pretty much easily avaliable but despite that, id constantly think about what id be missing out on if i went through. i think about who im leaving behind and how theyd react. my instinicts are strong but, id hate to miss out on things i love and would want to experience.

 

[monday?]

i used to carry a piece of rope tied into a noose in a backpack for years. it used to be a comfort for me until i realized i won't have the balls to do it. throwing away that rope was kind of relieving and has made me dismiss suicidal thoughts a lot faster. every time i think about killing myself the automatic thought that follows is "that's not a useful thought. it only comes to distract me from the unpleasant emotion i'm feeling right now. i'm just gonna sit through the emotion until it goes away instead of running away from it"

 

[23done]

In university I carried SN + meto in my backpack and it did bring me relief. In hindsight not a good idea because when things got bad I compulsively attempted and regretted it immediately

 

[petmom]

Personally no. I am gad however that I have the means. Remembering that isn't necessarily helpful, but it's like at least there's that. An end. Like I can do it if I want to.

If one wants to stay alive, acquiring means is not a good idea as it slightly increases risk. So just a warning and putting it out there

 

[ShadowOfASelf]

If I could get a magical pill that would 100% kill me and put me to sleep,, knowing that any night when things are really bad I could do it would for sure make my life easier to live day by day. Every easier if I knew that I couldn't take it anymore, I could plan my death and be surrounded by friends and family one last time.

 

[cheesecakec]

I know this is about methods specifically, but I felt like things were easier when I had my razors within reach. After a while, it's just a part of the scenery. Some people got rid of my razors so I don't have them right now, and honestly I haven't had the motivation to go buy new ones. I feel like I've never thought about SH more than now. Something about it being within sight makes me realize I don't really need it I think. It's just comforting knowing I have something to fall back on, while continuing my day like a normal person.

 

[crazysushi]

I was planning to do the same. May I know what happened to your attempt with SN?

 

[thelostautistic]

I wouldn't say things are easier. I'm still struggling a lot but having the method readily available has made me think about sticking around for a bit longer.