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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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I remember the pain so much I would pray so hard that my skin would clear and I could be happy again but it never happened. I feel like religion stopped me from CTB in my teens
 
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Nolan96

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Was your skin disease acne or something else?
I never prayed because I'm not religious. But acne and other skin diseases (I knew someone with bad exzema) can be much harder to treat and more physically and psychologically painful than people realize.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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Was your skin disease acne or something else?
I never prayed because I'm not religious. But acne and other skin diseases (I knew someone with bad exzema) can be much harder to treat and more physically and psychologically painful than people realize.
My skin disease was acne yup. It was horrible because we were religious and low income I prayed every night for it to go away it never went away. My older cousin stopped by to give me noxema, and then I begun begging my parents to give me money to go to stores to get creams that damaged my skin I'm doomed
 
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Nolan96

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Feb 12, 2022
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My skin disease was acne yup. It was horrible because we were religious and low income I prayed every night for it to go away it never went away. My older cousin stopped by to give me noxema, and then I begun begging my parents to give me money to go to stores to get creams that damaged my skin I'm doomed
Do you feel like you have a pretty good idea of what to do ideally to treat acne now, or are you still looking for advice?
I know for some people they can pretty much exhaust every available option and still struggle with it unbelievably.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
Do you feel like you have a pretty good idea of what to do ideally to treat acne now, or are you still looking for advice?
Honestly my skin is doomed. Too much damage from skin creams, and benzoyl peroxide, salicylic acid, etc. I know what would have solved it during my teens was accutane however I would have had bad reactions to it and probably still end up offing myself
 
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Nolan96

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Feb 12, 2022
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Honestly my skin is doomed. Too much damage from skin creams, and benzoyl peroxide, salicylic acid, etc. I know what would have solved it during my teens was accutane however I would have had bad reactions to it and probably still end up offing myself
I'm sorry you're still dealing with that. It's difficult to still have skin issues in adulthood.
I try to avoid giving unsolicited advice on that kind of stuff because I know it can seem patronizing to people who've been trying to fix their problems for years.
I wouldn't give up trying though. A good routine does change things over time, even if it's never quite as much as you would wish for.
There's also nothing wrong with using makeup to help you feel a little more comfortable and less insecure, regardless of gender. The right coverup won't damage your skin and is nothing to be ashamed of.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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I'm sorry you're still dealing with that. It's difficult to still have skin issues in adulthood.
I try to avoid giving unsolicited advice on that kind of stuff because I know it can seem patronizing to people who've been trying to fix their problems for years.
I wouldn't give up trying though. A good routine does change things over time, even if it's never quite as much as you would wish for.
There's also nothing wrong with using makeup to help you feel a little more comfortable and less insecure, regardless of gender. The right coverup won't damage your skin and is nothing to be ashamed of.
Yeah it sucks I'm still suffering this cruel disease. But not for long I hope. I would like to know though.

How has growing up non religious shaped your view towards this forum?

As someone who was raised Christian it's getting harder and harder to liberate myself as this is still ingrained in my psych
 
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Nolan96

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Feb 12, 2022
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Yeah it sucks I'm still suffering this cruel disease. But not for long I hope. I would like to know though.

How has growing up non religious shaped your view towards this forum?

As someone who was raised Christian it's getting harder and harder to liberate myself as this is still ingrained in my psych
It is worth keeping in mind that almost everyone does have reduced symptoms the more they age, especially if they're doing all they can to treat it. I don't want to pull a "permanent solution to a temporary problem" card, because realistically you could have years of managing this disease ahead of you even as an adult. And that could be very painful even if you're doing everything right physically and psychologically. But if you can live through it, there likely is a light at the end of the tunnel somewhere.

I wasn't raised purely non-religious. Just not devout, and I no longer identified as Christian by my teen years. I guess one effect is that I was never really exposed to the idea that suicide is a sin. My reaction to people hurting and on the brink has always been to try to be compassionate and help if I can, not to judge their moral character.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
It is worth keeping in mind that almost everyone does have reduced symptoms the more they age, especially if they're doing all they can to treat it. I don't want to pull a "permanent solution to a temporary problem" card, because realistically you could have years of managing this disease ahead of you even as an adult. And that could be very painful even if you're doing everything right physically and psychologically. But if you can live through it, there likely is a light at the end of the tunnel somewhere.

I wasn't raised purely non-religious. Just not devout, and I no longer identified as Christian by my teen years. I guess one effect is that I was never really exposed to the idea that suicide is a sin. My reaction to people hurting and on the brink has always been to try to be compassionate and help if I can, not to judge their moral character.
I have no desire living any further life is torment for me and I want to go however I can't will myself to do it.

Interesting I have to agree it's best to show compassion and not judge their decisions it is sad that many turn in this direction , I use to think suicide was bad when I was Christian however now I have understanding for those who do it for whatever their reasons may be I can see why some turn to this out of unfortunate events.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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You have a skin disease too? Is this your reason for wanting to CTB?
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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Same here not my main reason however it led me in this direction too. I'm sorry you're suffering
 
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Jul 26, 2020
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I didn't pray away acne but hydrogen peroxide certainly helped. I worked grill at McD's and after coming home to get the fry-fat smell off me in the shower I'd take a cotton ball and wipe my face. It really kept it in check and my buddy who worked at KFC had horrible acne when he worked there and after a while he did the same thing as I and got pretty good relief. Just an idea. We didn't have enough $$ in the family to have 5 kids using the "normal" acne products.
 
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Gsvko

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Dec 14, 2021
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I've had bad acne too, hit puberty early, felt like an alien. Those creams did nothing, mine calmed down on their own, just when other kids started getting them (haha fuckers).
It's under control now, but if I eat dairy I immediately break out with those geysers. It's not even just estetics, it hurts.
Back then I was still trying to be religious, I begged too.
 
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I have chronic exzmea and immune issues and yeah funny enough religion made mine worse as I found it too stressful since I became atheist it reduced abit due to doing things that religion would ban me from before but as it's chronic it's here forever no matter how much skincare I do or how much I meditate or wash my face . I just hate life and my health issues were partly genetic as my parents are cousins too and there families are so not healthy it just makes me feel so upset at my health . All my younger pics of me are full of health issues and i do t even have any happy memories all the trauma from looking different developed into anxiety and the pain is unbearable . I just hate my family for it too because my sibling went bald because of the genetic issue they got too and also got exzmea. And then they tell me I should be happy and I've got so much to live for when I can't even work due to the stress making me get infections and weeping skin and I'm way to self conscious to ever meet guys more than once now I hardly leave the house and am housebound they said id grow out of it after 18 but I dropped out of uni bc of how bad it got I was so anxious I was hostile and covering my face outside so I just accepted in better inside . Everything triggers it and the unbearable itch . I can't wait till my unhealthy body is just deteriorated in the grave instead of me seeing it every day I just wish I looked normal
 

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