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cjs0712

cjs0712

Waiting to die
Feb 8, 2024
75
Today I thought about killing myself. It was sad. I almost cried. I don't want to kill myself. I don't hate the world, only mine. When I die, it's finally over, the bad things, the good things. Things all end anyways. It didn't have to end like this. But all paths lead to this. It's all been decided long time ago. Had I realized sooner, things might have changed. But things had to stay this way. There is no god and no afterlife. Would've been better still if I could believe in either or both. It's hard to believe I am not an actor in a stage. My role is over, and so is the show. I did bad, and so did everybody else. When the curtain closes, will I find peace. Time will tell. I hope it is. If not, it will be over soon. All things end anyways. fsdfcvfffffcya
So cringe go kys
 
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Coconteppi

Coconteppi

It was a cool lil place. Just missing something :)
Mar 14, 2024
121
What is it that is causing you to want to CTB right now if you naturally don't want to?
 
cjs0712

cjs0712

Waiting to die
Feb 8, 2024
75
i want to and i kinda don't want to but like feel like i have to but i don't have to till the time comes when i haveto but like yea sooner te better
 
Gl1tch3d G1rl

Gl1tch3d G1rl

My mom must've had a virus coz I was born a glitch
Aug 10, 2021
1,409
i want to and i kinda don't want to but like feel like i have to but i don't have to till the time comes when i haveto but like yea sooner te better
Just make sure not to rush it too much either, if you do it too soon, you're more likely to back off and fail once SI kicks in, I'd know coz it has happened to me way too many times. You need to make sure you're ready, please take care! I wouldn't want you to end up in the psych ward or anything due to failed attempt, or worse... Just looking out for you :)
 
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cjs0712

cjs0712

Waiting to die
Feb 8, 2024
75
hey
Just make sure not to rush it too much either, if you do it too soon, you're more likely to back off and fail once SI kicks in, I'd know coz it has happened to me way too many times. You need to make sure you're ready, please take care! I wouldn't want you to end up in the psych ward or anything due to failed attempt, or worse... Just looking out for you :)
hey psych ward might be goo option d if I can drink and do my favorite hobby where i live it could be good option if do they let you?
 
Coconteppi

Coconteppi

It was a cool lil place. Just missing something :)
Mar 14, 2024
121
i want to and i kinda don't want to but like feel like i have to but i don't have to till the time comes when i haveto but like yea sooner te better
Currently, what is causing you not to do it? In the sense of. Is there something you're living for rn?
 
cjs0712

cjs0712

Waiting to die
Feb 8, 2024
75
i don't haven't my sn yet, yes i am living for now
 
Gl1tch3d G1rl

Gl1tch3d G1rl

My mom must've had a virus coz I was born a glitch
Aug 10, 2021
1,409
hey

hey psych ward might be goo option d if I can drink and do my favorite hobby where i live it could be good option if do they let you?
Psych Wards don't let you drink, and it might not be a good place depending on witch one you end up in and where you live, some are good, but a lot of them are very much not.
 
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