Venting Desire to CTB and loss of Desire for anything else

[suicidal jirai]

Maybe it's because my mental health is crumbling, I desperately want to CTB, normally I love going shopping, buying things...and yet...I don't even want to do that anymore...I don't feel like I want anything anymore, I don't feel like I need it anymore....

 

[Carrot]

Things are vain to me, but everybody copes in a different way. I wouldn't mind existing if I didn't have to work and could just isolate somewhere barely spending any money until the rest of my life. I wouldn't be happy ignoring all what is going in the world, but I could do that. Obviously achieving such state is not easy, and I am not willng to try to achieve that state just [to] go be silently miserable. I'd rather just die.

 

[suicidal jirai]

Things are vain to me, but everybody copes in a different way. I wouldn't mind existing if I didn't have to work and could just isolate somewhere barely spending any money until the rest of my life. I wouldn't be happy ignoring all what is going in the world, but I could do that. Obviously achieving such state is not easy, and I am not willng to try to achieve that state just go be silently miserable. I'd rather just die.

Same :(