Depressed about causing massive pain to family if i commit

[heyismeman]

I know i will commit. But fuck, the guilt of knowing ill be taking off when everyone in my family is angry at me sucks so much...

 

[offbalance]

it's just inevitable if you commit suicide. You're not alone though

 

[RyuuW]

If you're dead you can't feel this guilt. That's what I'm trying to think right now.

 

[heyismeman]

If you're dead you can't feel this guilt. That's what I'm trying to think right now.

E mais e foda

 

[Off_Switch]

It's either your suffering or theirs. You just have to simply pick one. Or try to swallow your pride and reach out to them for help. Those are really your only choices.

 

[anonymousperson]

Same thats really the only thing that has stopped me so far. The thought of causing my parents so much pain and grief is just too much. I know my mother would probably die from grief given I am her world and her only child. However, given the fact they are older I know once they die or become really ill I plan to do it. Then we can go together.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I've told my dad repeatedly now:

I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOU

I can't imagine the pain of your firstborn son, once so promising, catching the bus. I just want him to know that I would spare him this pain if I could.

 

[grandmotherboxing]

I am an only child so I always felt this deeply until I realized my family was, is and will be useless.

I don't know if there is an afterlife, but in either case I won't feel any guilt or shame if I choose to end my suffering and finally commit after 17 years of these thoughts