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vittra213

vittra213

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Nov 20, 2025
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my world was very perfect for a while. the girl i love more than anything loved me back. said she loved me all the time and everything was perfect. i was happy and so was she. but then when she told me, it all came crashing down. it's like i'm living in my own world. have u ever looked back at something after hearing the truth and realise things weren't perfect? i was an asshole and she never loved me and i kept pushing to be her lover. my mind created these delusions that she loved me back because i was in such denial. it felt like my whole world was fake and my whole perfect dream world came crashing down to pieces.
 
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fromange

fromange

riding the wave °‧ 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 ·。
Oct 29, 2025
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She said she loves you or that was a delusion?
 
vittra213

vittra213

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Nov 20, 2025
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She said she loves you or that was a delusion?
she said she loved me, but it was so obvious she didnt. she gaslit herself into making herself believe she loved me because i couldn't accept she wasn't my lover. sorry if my words are a bit weird.
 
fromange

fromange

riding the wave °‧ 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 ·。
Oct 29, 2025
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she said she loved me, but it was so obvious she didnt. she gaslit herself into making herself believe she loved me because i couldn't accept she wasn't my lover. sorry if my words are a bit weird.
I see. I'm in a similar situation. I believe she did love me at one point. But maybe that was just her fake it til you make it phase. It's very hard. Sorry I have nothing better. I hope to be able to be fine alone.
 
vittra213

vittra213

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Nov 20, 2025
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I see. I'm in a similar situation. I believe she did love me at one point. But maybe that was just her fake it til you make it phase. It's very hard. Sorry I have nothing better. I hope to be able to be fine alone.
t hurts a lot but at one point you have to accept the truth, i don't know if i have come that far yet. i just made myself believe she loved me even if she obviously didn't because i didn't want to accept the truth. i hope you will
 

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