My N arrived today. It took 4 days via private courier. When I saw it I immediately started shaking and broke out in a cold sweat. It was sketchy because my dad was home from work first and I walked by him with the package and he asked me what I had ordered. Everything seems very real now.
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Only Me Here
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- Apr 29, 2019
- 263
I can only imagine that feeling, did you get your antiemtics? Where do you live? Wow 4 days that is quick. Are you going to wait or just go ahead? I have thought of that moment and i think the relief i would have having it in my hands may make me want to carry on a bit and try to enjoy things now that it's all in my control.
Haven't ordered my antiemetics yet mainly because I was half expecting the package to not even be delivered. I live in Midwest US. I have to wait for meto obviously, but I also have some loose strings to tie up before I check out.
Timetoleave
Student
- May 8, 2019
- 100
Escaper Boy
累坏了...
- Apr 11, 2019
- 245
Zzzzz
Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
- Aug 8, 2018
- 879
Are you taking stat dose or something else? I have my N but I have no idea what anti emetics to take or how to take them.
seems like as soon as the N arrives people feel more in control and less likely to immediately kill themselves....wish i could order N but in my country ordering N from any where would be drug trafficking, with 5 to 15 years in jail D=
Only Me Here
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- Apr 29, 2019
- 263
I am hoping that is the case, i think it just means less fear in trying cause if you fck up things you have a safety net that most of us don't have otherwise.
There's a mega thread titled "getting n from a" that is where my journey began it has all the necessary info.
I said "it's some death juice bro" jk... I said I bought a gaming mouse off of eBay lolz
Once I obtain the meto I'm going to test for any reactions with a dry run this will determine if I do 48h or stat dose method
Not going to lie this is one of the many thoughts I had when I held the package
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Sick Boy
Student
- Oct 19, 2018
- 186
4 days wow?it always impresses me that some people receive the N so fast,and for other people takes even months
Asacschrader33
Student
- May 6, 2019
- 158
I want to order but my boyfriend is retired and always gets the mail first and he also has access to all my accounts. So he would see what I bought. Any ideas of how to get around these issues?
JJ-NOHOPE
Tantalus - all desire, no hope
- Nov 26, 2018
- 119
can't you use a proton mail and get a mail box at the post office?
IronTusk
Experienced
- Apr 10, 2019
- 266
Umbra
Trans Girl
- Mar 15, 2019
- 109
Are you implying you shouldnt ctb if you have a boyfriend?
IronTusk
Experienced
- Apr 10, 2019
- 266
What? Also use cash for local bitcoins or open a new checking account for Coinbase and pay with bitcoin.
Only Me Here
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- Apr 29, 2019
- 263
Heading home i am not too sure of your story, but yesterday you made a similar comment to me that i should feel lucky i can walk. You are right i should and i do. But if a person has found themselves in a place where they cannot continue further, telling people they should just be happy for what they have isn't very helpful. We are here for our own reasons and you only have insight into one comment. if the answer were that easy believe me i would take it and not be plotting these things at all. No one actively chooses this if there are other feasible options. I am truly sorry for what has brought anyone here, i know how much a person must suffer to land here.
Asacschrader33
Student
- May 6, 2019
- 158
Life's just cruel. One second I'm a happy person and the next I have a terminal illness. It's just random and cruel.
I don't even know what bitcoin is and I'm so depressed and anxious that it keeps me from doing the proper research. So horrid when your illness even gets in the way of trying to cab properly. But I refuse to have a failed attempt or at least wish to minimize the chances
Thank you.
I am so ill that going anywhere is difficult...I get panic attacks. I never used to be this way. I don't recognize myself at all anymore. I used to be a vibrant, happy, outgoing extrovert. Now I am a shell, I exist and breathe air but I have no life whatsoever
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JadedGray
Life Eternal
- Jul 24, 2018
- 991
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