Venting Dealing with the consequences of after CTB

[Unsure and Useless]

Although I have my CTB plans (mostly) fleshed out, having to spend time with my family has me trying to cope with what will happen after I CTB

For one, my parents have taken out loans for me that they're still playing off (such as my tuition), and if I die, I fear that they'll still have to pay off those loans

Not only that, but my family will have to deal with my corpse. I have nowhere to go, so I will be CTB'ing in a residence that I share with a sibling. However, the last thing I want is for my sibling to be unable to live there when the cops get involved (as I'm planning to send a scheduled email to my local precinct approximately 3 hours after I CTB)

Obviously, these things won't directly concern me because I'd be dead, but I feel guilty over it regardless because, while I'm desperate to CTB, I don't want to cause more of a fuss than necessary

 

[dalemar]

Cant you book an hotel room or Airbnb? A car and drive to a very quiet location at night?. I dont know, just throwing some ideas

 

[Unsure and Useless]

Cant you book an hotel room or Airbnb? A car and drive to a very quiet location at night?. I dont know, just throwing some ideas

I live in a city, so anywhere that I could go with a good anchor point (rn I'm planning to go FSH until I can reliably source SN) has a bunch of people around. (Plus, I'm obese af, so branches from some random tree won't work)

By extension, I would assume most hotels have shitty anchor points since I (hypothetically) won't be the first nor the last to attempt in one. As for AirBnBs, I believe the homes are owned by individuals, so I don't want to inconvenience some random person renting out their residence in order to afford rent by hanging in their bathroom or something

 

[dalemar]

I would say to better wait for the sn.
You don't want a failed attempt.

 

[avstin]

sorry to tell you, but CTB will always cause more fuss for people around you. suicide simply means shifting your problems to others if there are any close and there is no way to avoid the damage you'll do if you decide to go

 

[Unsure and Useless]

suicide simply means shifting your problems to others if there are any close and there is no way to avoid the damage you'll do if you decide to go

Yeah, I figured. It just sorta defeats the whole purpose I'm catching the bus in the first place, so I want to minimize as much stress and worry for my family and the friends who still genuinely give a shit about me